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Appreciating a brief rendezvous
May 15, 2010 by Leeman, under Dreams, Iris, Love Economics.
I had a number of dreams this morning. I started out at a futuristic-ish city. I don’t remember much from this segment, but I attracted three much older women in their 40′s and 50′s, all married or has grown children. We were always either in a large closed store that sold wedding dresses or at a large Chinese restaurant with other people. The women would come around and start kissing me and I would feel a bit awkward but liked it at the same time.
In another dream of the same morning, I was inside a large hotel or a cruise ship and I was walking in a long carpeted hallway towards one end with a huge crowd of people walking the same direction on the left side. Another huge crowd of people were walking towards us to the other end of the hallway that was behind us, on the right side. As I walked slowly pass the crowd on the right, I noticed Iris in that opposite crowd. As we were just about to pass each other, we looked at each other and I stopped very briefly, reached up to her face with my right hand, caressed her face with the back of my fingers gently as if I was appreciating her. In my dream, I felt her face on the back of my fingers. The touch was surreal and sensual and that sparked up a lot of subtle but deep emotion in me.
She smiled at me and said “thank you”, then we moved passed each other and that was that. I didn’t even look back. Later in that same dream segment, I would wander around that massive mall/hotel just checking the place out which I will explain in more detail after this and it was two fold for me. I was actively sight-seeing, but I was passively seeing if I would be able to bump into her again. I didn’t. Not even once. Secretly, I felt a little upset that I couldn’t see her again, but at the same time, I wasn’t really that much affected by that.
In my sight-seeing adventure, it was quite scary in some aspect, but very epic in some way. I noticed that outside the huge windows facing the ocean, was a massive storm. Apparently, Vancouver Island was no more and Richmond was right at the edge of the ocean. Richmond in the future looked very different, but safe and strong. I guess we have to be if we’re facing such storms on a constant basis.
In my dream, the city was so detailed. In fact, for a very brief moment in the dream I ‘woke up’ for a few seconds and even thought to myself as I looked into an alcove in the distance, “It’s incredible that my dreams have so much vivid detail.” Then I ‘fell back’ in that unconscious dreaming state unaware I was dreaming again.
In the third segment of my morning dreams, I was in a massive ship of sorts that I owned. It was either a large space ship or a large ocean-going vessel. There was a small crew on board and Patrick was there along with some other people, but they were usually not with me. Tom was there with some other people, including some girls I’ve never seen before. Throughout that dream, a couple of those girls and I would be flirting and talking innuendo like crazy, but nothing would ever really happen beyond that, though it was almost apparent that each of us had taken a liking to me and me towards them.
I woke up because my brother and Ryan texted me.
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The Fields of Mount Fuji
May 10, 2010 by Leeman, under Dreams, Iris, Love Economics.
Unlike most other nights and mornings, I actually went to work with about 3.5 hours of sleep. My brain isn’t functioning that well and I’m not joking this time. I actually feel quite bad right now. Regardless, I had dreams and this dream or these dreams were a bit disturbing for me.
I dreamed mainly about Erica and a little about Iris. Patrick was in there too, along with my mom, my dad, Brandon, my brother, my aunt and even Jason Ding and Jason Lau, but primarily it was about Erica. You see, Erica and I moderate a web site together and we have access to each other’s private messages between people. However, even though I have this power, I don’t easily check other people’s messages unless I really need to and this need is only induced by reports made by people.
In my dream, the distance caused by Erica fueled my mistrust of her and this in turn, caused me to check up her private messages. Mind you, this was in my dream. It didn’t happen in reality and it never will. In her messages, I found that other men were contacting her and this was no big deal normally, but I found the messages to be very similar to the ones I shared with her in the beginning of our ‘relationship’. A lot of innuendo, subtly sexual, almost intimate. The more I read into her messages by various people, the more I became tormented. The visuals surrounding my dream was that of me treading through fields of tall thick grass, in light fog, cloudy skies, old wooden fences, unmaintained bushes and trees, met with ditches and dirty creeks. (more…)
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What I need
December 3, 2009 by Leeman, under Bunches Of Oats, Dreams, Enlightenment, Friendship, Love Economics, Realization, Sex.
Last night, I had one too many, though it wasn’t that bad actually. After the club, Pat and I went to #9. Adam came later. I got home just after 2:30am. I apparently crashed in bed, half asleep but at 3:49am, I receive a call from Kari whom I haven’t spoken to for a long time. Now, since after 2003, the only times she ever called me was because she was upset. I picked up after three buzzes and one of the first things I asked was whether she was sad, then her voice broke up. Unfortunately, she hung up on me about 20 minutes into the conversation and instead, texted me for the next roughly 30 minutes. It was fine. She needed a friend to talk with and I was there… Oh sorry, “to talk to” I mean. Not with. ^_^
After that, I fell completely asleep around 8am, woke up to my 9:51am alarm, drove my dad to work, called in sick again. Yeah, three days straight.
I had a dream, a very interesting intuition-induced dream. One I have not had for a very long time. These are the sort of dreams where people of religion interpret it as their god(s) speaking to them. My interpretation is simple and has been for the last twenty years. I call them “intuition-induced dreams”. They are dreams that initiate a phase to allow me to rid excess and concentrate on the core. (more…)
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Samsonite Sex
November 12, 2009 by Leeman, under Dreams, Love Economics, Sex.
In the less than an hour of continued sleep after I dropped my dad off to work, I dreamed that I was going from my home to a place that resembled Simon Fraser University to drop off an empty Samsonite laptop case I own. It was night time and I walked past some kids who were doing something with their bikes and skateboards. I went to some alcove and walked past a bunch of massive dung beetle like bugs, to a door and a bench beside it. The alcove was surrounded by a low small-stone studded wall with more ground – dirt, grass and bushes on top of it.
I set the case down and walked away and somehow ended back at my own place. Except it wasn’t the townhouse I’m living at right now. It’s an apartment I was either renting or own.
Somewhere in there, I met up with a female friend and we ended up having sex back at my place. I remember that she was in a state of loneliness and wanted to share a night of bodies touching and rubbing up against each other. Though she was feminine and willing and though we were already engaged in the sexual acts, I felt almost half-hearted in my attempt to continue, especially when she had her legs wrapped around me so tightly. (more…)
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Rejection
October 8, 2009 by Leeman, under Dreams.
This creature is known as a “Pong” because I’ve been trying to sleep most of the morning with little success and cannot think up a better name than “Dangok”. 8P
Which also means, I skipped work today because around 6:30 this morning, I suddenly woke up to a very painful stomach ache and spent a good two hours trying to clear that up on top of the two hours I tried to go back to sleep, shivering from the cold, which mind boggled me. I could not figure out why I was so cold.
So I had a dream this morning, as I finally fell back asleep and I think it’s good to document it because it stood out… Not that most of my dreams don’t stand out vividly, but well… (more…)
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The Visionary That Saved The World
May 17, 2008 by Leeman, under Dreams.
5:27am
Tune: “Slept So Long” by Jay Gordon
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I’m quite exhausted right now and should have been in bed around 2am but I needed to finish this thing and I’m still doing it.
A few mornings ago, I woke up from another nightmarish dream. Another vivid dream where I could feel touch and have slight control over the mechanics of the dream world. Only difference between this dream and all the previous one is that I was the ‘god’ of that world – at least, the denizens of my dream made me into a god. (more…)
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Taking Things For Granted
February 19, 2008 by Leeman, under Dreams, Visions & Family.
4:12am
My sleep schedule, as always, is screwed up. I went to bed around 7:30pm and got up finally at 3am. In between, I woke up once. So there were two dreams I had that I remembered both of which were very unsettling.
The first dream had to do with losing my brother. Both my parents were still alive but throughout the entire dream, I felt utter loneliness, as if the one thing I adore the most has left without even a goodbye. Though I still had my parents, my connection with my brother was different. (more…)
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Something Wicked This Way Comes
January 29, 2008 by Leeman, under Dreams.
2:39pm
The dream started with an ‘alternate’ scene from one of the Ghost Busters movies with all four of the original cast standing in the middle of what looked like a deserted construction yard. They were all together holding a ghost containment unit that looked heavy and unstable. I wasn’t quite there in person, but I was in the perspective of a ‘floating camera’. Venkmen said something that horrified me. He wanted to re-contain the ghosts inside the contain unit into what looked like a flimsy greenhouse attached to the containment unit. I thought, “Why would you do that to something so dangerous?” Before anyone thought of stopping him, he released the unit and the greenhouse filled up rapidly. This was also when I turned from the ‘floating camera’ to an actual person. (more…)
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A Voice Like Yours
December 7, 2007 by Leeman, under Dreams, Love Economics, Visions & Family.
11:49pm
Tune: “Sarabande Suite (Aeternae)” by Globus
Drink: Paarl Ruby Port
I had a vision, where I was completely clad in plate armour and I had a claymore drawn towards the sky. Then in one swift move, I stabbed myself through the chest, as the army moved beyond me for their own war. Then I drifted off and was reborn a peasant. As I picked cabbages, I looked at my dirty hands and had a massive feeling of sadness that I miss something lost to me. Over the days, nights, weeks, months and years, for every sun-down, upon the fire, I had thoughts of fighting huge wars, for a king that I deemed worthy, and a life fulfilling. At night, I dreamt of someone soft, who conjured a smile just for me. At sunrise, I tend to my animals and my plants and wonder where I got the strength.
I wonder, people should live simpler lives. Where they aren’t completely aware of themselves. Where they live life, day in, day out, to do what they do, for what the universe sets out for them to do. I am constantly aware of myself. It is indeed, very difficult. I can see myself peering out of my body. I can feel that I need to be released, but I cannot.
Tonight, I will drink until I can drink no more. I took my dad to the airport on Tuesday for his flight to Hong Kong. Mmm, this song is good.
Tune: “Heavy Intro” by Talvin Singh featuring Amar
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I bought this CD a few years ago. Had it converted to MP3. Haven’t heard this for a long time. I think you will like this Michelle. What do you think of when you listen to it?
Who wants to travel with me next year? I want to do some solo or partner travelling next year somewhere. I am thinking of India or Burma.
A lot of times, I want to stay in my own little world. It keeps me away from the things I am passionately against, or passionately in disagreement with. For example, I can’t think too straight right now. [laughs]
Jon, to make up for buying such a bad game – though hey, it’s not that bad; erm, I FOUND AND BOUGHT GTR2 and RACE 07!!!!! OMGOD I can’t wait until I come back from Hong Kong to play them! They’re being mailed to Jason’s place.
Anyway, back on topic…
No, nevermind. I broke the habit of starting unwanted sentences and abruptly stopping half way. Another missing piece.
Anyone can play an instrument, but not everyone can soothe my senses with their voice.
12:15am
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Representing
December 1, 2007 by Leeman, under Dreams, Sports & Traveling.
8:25am
I had a dream this morning where I was going to school somewhere. The teacher was supposed to be Mr. Whittingham, except that a substitute was teaching in his place, and even though the course was Social Studies, it seemed that I was a ‘special’ student there that had the authority to set my own schedule.
That part of the dream was mainly set in a specific area that looked like the backyard of an older house. The class was on the bottom floor and was accessed via the back entrance. I remember I was somewhere thinking a bit left out that the other students were segregated from me, but I also tried to humble myself by staying away from them believing that if I stayed out of sight, they wouldn’t think I was trying to be a snob that was getting special treatment. (more…)
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Neglected Or Reflected?
November 18, 2007 by Leeman, under Dreams.
2:28pm
Ack! I have to leave for my meeting in 11 minutes! So quickly…
I had a ‘weird’ dream just before I woke up. I hate it when the feeling of the ‘good’ part always get disrupted with alarms. So inconvenient!
It was at some university or college. I was wandering around and ended up at a stadium, in the bleachers. With my notebook, I wrote a bunch of my thoughts in there. Then later on, I met up with my girlfriend who was a cute-ish half caucasian, half Chinese-descendent with shoulder-length hair. She wore glasses and took her studies quite seriously. It didn’t seem like I was a student there at all though.
We were at some room, sitting on the floor with other people, and I remembered putting my left arm around her waist and poked her side. She turned towards me and I whispered to her, “You have time during recess or a break?”
She told me she had to do something, so I asked her if she had time during lunch, and she said she had to study for her exam. I didn’t persist further.
Somehow, we ended up on the bus, and Aaron was sitting to my right. No, not Sutherland. Somehow, the conversation got to Aaron telling us that if it was him, he wouldn’t be dating if his career or his school was taking up a lot of his time. He wasn’t directing it at us, but it sounded that way. After he finished, my in-dream girlfriend turned to me and had a glance of something I wrote in my notebook. I closed it before she read anything though. She asked me if I will let her read her notebook like before, later, and I just kind of looked down hesitant. That was when I woke up.
I didn’t think much about it, cuz I have to go now.
2:41pm
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A View I Haven't Seen
November 7, 2007 by Leeman, under Dreams, Sports & Traveling, Visions & Family.
6:24am
“Damn it Jim! I’m a miracle worker! Not a doctor!” Were the words of Jon during one of our nightly role playing games back in the days. [laughs]
Tune: “Pulse” by Yoko Kanno
Drink: Fonseca Bin 27 Port
I’ll have to go and get some more this Friday. I’ll probably get two or three bottles this time around. I might try something new.
I was just thinking, have any of you desired to go out on a bang? No, not sexually fool! Meaning, well you know what I mean. (more…)
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A Strange Dream, Yet Again…
October 31, 2007 by Leeman, under Dreams.
10:57am
Yeah, noticed that time? I barely got any sleep. My eyes are achingly dry. Went downstairs about 30 minutes ago for a full cup of milk. The Port earlier dried me out.
I had a dream where I think it started on some river – the Fraser River on a calm day? Early summer evening or late morning? I was looking at a pier and thought that it would be a lot safer and smarter to build it this way – “this” being what I was thinking about while I was dreaming. Then we came closer to another pier and thought, “If only they built it like how I would build them, then things would be safer.”
We weren’t really on a boat, or rather, I wasn’t quite aware that we were on anything. We = Jon and I. This part was freaky. We made out and had babies.
Weird eh?
[ponders]
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
[ahem]
No.
No, so we got off the ‘invisible’ boat and before us was this small dark green inflatable boat with a wooden transport platform – I don’t know what they are called, but it’s those wooden plank things that lifts use…………. (more…)
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The More It Happens…
October 31, 2007 by Leeman, under Dreams, Love Economics, Sex, Visions & Family.
1:37am
To break out of my religious rants lately and back into Leemanism, I was just thinking throughout the day that there are things that has been stopping the ‘progression’ of certain situations from happening in the last year since I came back from Hong Kong, but before I continue, a tune for you…
Tune: “Kishida Shun” From Kakyuusei 2
Drink: Fonseca Bin 27 Port
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A couple of nights ago, I received a call at 2 in the morning. The offer was very tempting, and unfortunately, I agreed to it. Fortunately however, considering a circumstance, the action didn’t go through. So as I layed in bed that morning, trying to fall asleep, I thought that it was fortunate that it didn’t happen.
As this year gets closer to my trip to Hong Kong again, things keep popping up. There are all these temptations, and my mind and body is completely split in terms of desire and holding back. To say the least, I feel stupid for making up excuses, but I want to make up excuses to stop myself from committing any actions that may lead me astray. Sounds off eh? Astray? Leeman?
It’s difficult to admit this, but what I used to be able to do, is not easily doable as I age. It’s not that I am incapable. It’s because I can’t justify doing any of them. Yes, it’s fun talking and chatting away to the wee hours of the night, flirting and talking dirty as the night goes on, but I almost feel as if it’s enough to just know that I can.
Jon, does that sound familiar? Except you were at least 4 years ahead of me… (more…)
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The Man In The Desert
October 30, 2007 by Leeman, under Dreams, Visions & Family.
3:41am
Tune: “The Man In The Desert” by Yoko Kanno
Mood: Feels like I am waiting for something or someone
Drink: Fonseca Bin 27 Port
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Ever had a dream that naturally flows into the transition of waking up, in which the end result is you lying in bed, facing up, looking at the ceiling, but not really looking at anything, with your eyes open, but as if you’ve just finished a very long and engrossing book and you’re thinking about it. Kind of like coming out of the ‘shock’ of an awesome story?
I had a dream where I treked across a desert. It was difficult to breath and it was difficult to walk. The wind was constantly against me. The sand storms were massive, and I constantly had to look through the slits of my eyelids. At first, there was no one with me. Days, weeks, months probably went by. I was alone and I walked, and walked, and kept walking. I fell to my knees a few times, but I didn’t feel physically tired. I felt mentally tired.
I walked over vast dunes, over oceans of wavering sand that stretched beyond the horizon. It was the most difficult dream ever, but I walked it all. Where as in other dreams, I could only walk inches. In this one, I walked possibly thousands of miles.
My face became more and more hairy. My face became more and more tired. I started to get gray and white hairs. The sides of my eyes and the sides of my mouth started to get wrinkles.
Then I stopped suddenly.
Tune: “Lydia” by Yoko Kanno
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I stopped, with the focus on my tired old face, looking out at whatever I was staring at. It was bright, sandy, and windy. I was covered with desert robes and rags.
Then without further thought, I continued to walk. I realized I was no longer alone. A boy in rags and desert robes was also treking alongside me. I ignored him completely. He fell back a few times, even almost giving up, but always managed to catch up enough. I didn’t think anything.
I craved wine in that dream. I eventually thought how wonderful if I could rest somewhere and have wine. I wanted wine. So I stopped and the boy stopped behind me. I looked up a bit, then I took my head-rags off and looked 360 degrees around me. I turned to the boy and now I was the ’3rd view’ from far away, and see the silohuette of the boy and I standing on top of a dune with the sun in the background.
Tune: “This Eden” by Yoko Kanno
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Then it was me again. I landed on my knees and he was my exact height as he stood in front of me. I looked passed him, across his shoulders and noticed it was dark way back there. Then my eyes slowly glanced over to meet his eyes and his face, and noticed how youthful he was. I said to him, “If you follow me, you will know only aloneness. At times, you will want to give up, but you never do, because no matter how tiring, you will have a desire to keep going. Don’t follow me.”
At that moment, I was semi-aware that I was dreaming, but not enough to take control. However, with some power from that awareness, I created a bottle of homemade wine and my character gave it to the boy. I remember saying after he took it, “This is the only thing I have. Take it and go.” Then I continued walking. I never looked back after that. I didn’t know whether that boy continued to follow me or not, but when I woke up from that dream, I realized I stared at the ceiling for a long time thinking – more like continuing that dream while being awake.
Tune: “Is It Real?” by Yoko Kanno
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On a completely unrelated subject but somehow related to this topic, Michelle sent me this the other day:
We are all connected each and every single one of us. The soul is the glue of the universe,its not just sticky glue,its intelligent, everything looks out for everything else. And everything is in harmony with the world. The soul is like an arm full of roses ,when reduced to its purest form, you have its essence.Its strange that this essence is hard to find,because it is inside and around us all making sure that everything is connected. Did you know everytime you breath you take in millions of atoms breathed out from someone in say China? Those atoms were in another body circulating in the blood or building cell or perhaps making a baby. Without knowing it,you are connected to a baby who hasn’t even been born yet.The water in your body has the same salt and mineral content as the ocean,which means you are carring the ocean arround inside you. The skin cells that you rubbed off on your towel this morning when you stepped out the shower contain molecules that were once in the body of Jesus and Buddha and every other ancestor from the past.
I adore how her thoughts closely resembles mine when it comes to life and philosophy.
4:48am
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Glossy Memories
October 17, 2007 by Leeman, under Dreams, Sports & Traveling, Visions & Family.
5:15am
Tune: “Power of Sound” by Ace
I have to wake up at 11am today for work, so I have to keep this short. I’ve been listening to this track on and off for a couple of days now, but I heard it before a few months ago when I was really into Initial D. I recently got back into it, and is in the process of rewatching the Fourth Stage.
As I was watching it, and listening to the track, a few ‘memories’ resurfaced. It’s hard to explain, but those ‘memories’ resurfaced with a very subtle hint of the emotions attached to those ‘memories’. I am putting quotations on “memories” because those memories are very vague.
Imagine a street scene, in Hong Kong or somewhere similar. Quiet night in the area, but noisy in the distance. The street is bright and lit up by yellowish orange lights from above. The street is dry but the surface is a little glossy. The street is empty. There is a car behind me, playing this tune or a similar tune. It has a fast beat to it. It’s a dance song (none of that shit that we have now mind you). Even if it’s a dance song, there’s quite a bit of emotion attached to it. Hard to explain.
Well, that’s all I’m going to say about the scene. I brought it up cuz I see it in my ‘memory’, and I am trying to hold onto that memory and those emotions, as vague as they may be. Why? Because I no longer have those emotions. I haven’t felt that way for years. I think the last time I felt those sort of emotions was back before 2001. Maybe even in 1999, or 1998?
I can’t close my eyes either and think. It disappears faster. [chuckles] It’s fading, but I can still see it. It reminds me of those nights, those friggin cold nights. We can’t go back to those days and nights, but I can always try to remember them.
BTW, I got your Top Gear email Jon. Will reply in a day. Just mentioning it here, cuz I’m excited. Series 10!!! WOOHOO!
5:28am
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It's Been A Long Time
July 15, 2007 by Leeman, under Dreams, Why Is The Moon?.
11:30pm
It’s been a long time eh?
So why? Why Leeman? Why nothing in the last 12 days? The answer is simple. It isn’t because I was busy, though in reality, I should be very busy. It isn’t because I’m seeing/dating anyone, but even if I were, none of you would know, nor would I tell you. It isn’t because games are taking my time away, though I have been having nightmares about Need For Speed Most Wanted, but more on that later.
No no. I haven’t been updating because first, there is nothing much to talk about aside from the 2 previous bike rides I had with Albert and the ‘mature’ woman at my workplace that I’ve been considering of getting hot and dirty with. Second, because I’ve actually been spending a LOT of time on EBay to buy anime series and movies that I’ve downloaded in the past – good ones well worth rewatching mind you.
Yup, that’s it.
^^ My RX8 VS the Cayman S1 which I captured after the race. 83 (more…)
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Air Canada
May 22, 2007 by Leeman, under Dreams.
6:29am
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["Island In My Dreams" refluxed by Leeman Cheng in December 7th, 2000]
So I just woke up from about 5 hours of sleep from a nightmarish dream… Another one.
I travelled to the United States, or what looked like the U.S. with my mom. We went somewhere. It was always sunny when I was lost or looking for my way, but it was always foggy and dim when I was idle. The dream was vivid. I saw every detail, I remember every detail – the fine lines of the many portraits hanging inside the five star hotel. I remember the people that walked by us. The people and the objects that interacted with us. I remember the ‘temperature’ and the noises…
It was time to go. Jon, his girlfriend, his ex girlfriend, my brother, Albert, Jenny, Ben, and Laura was there, and probably others too. I went to the washroom, while they waited outside with my mom, and my brother was in the washroom with me. I asked him, “Why is Jon’s girlfriend so dark?” In which my brother replied, “It must because of that place she went to.”
Then I hesitated of going out, but I did, and saw them all lying, sitting, standing around. I interacted with some of them, smiled to the rest, and remembered that somehow, we were at the ‘wrong’ gate, though we weren’t. That’s when the dream became nightmarish. (more…)
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Lost That Love And Feeling
April 25, 2007 by Leeman, under Dreams, Visions & Family.
9:09am
It’s a good song by the Righteous Brothers.
Well, mistakes happen and I can’t go back in time to change them, and even if I can repair the damage in the coming future, I can only do so much. Scars and such will always be there.
The last couple of days, I’ve been jumping from one project to the next quickly enough that I don’t have enough reserve energy to actually keep me going healthy. So last night, I retired to bed earlier – around 2:30am and slept until around 7:40am, then got out of bed by 8:30am. I have to go to my client at 11am to 3pm, then come home and work on Razor stuff, get an hour of napping, then out to my Razor work meeting at 7:30pm to around 11pm.
To keep me sane and creative, I’ve been playing Half Life 2. It’s an innovative first person shooter with a few puzzle elements and the realism is nothing I have ever seen before. It wasn’t until I played HL2 for a couple of hours that I realized why I have been so numbed out for the last two years. I remember when I was younger, there was a certain unexplainable feeling that I lived from day to day that had both sad and numbing undertones, mixed with bouts of happy moments and such. This feeling was strengthened and boosted temporarily whenever I play first person shooter games that had elements of realism in them.
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Beyond The Borders
March 7, 2007 by Leeman, under Dreams, Love Economics, Visions & Family.
11:52am
["Beyond The Borders" by Elysis]
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^^ This tune was made by one of my favorite musicians of the 90′s. It was an on-going inspiration for me to continue with what can be precious to me and my parents. Elysis, amongst others, were the encouraging force that motivated me to get into tracking as a hobby back in the mid 90′s to early millenia. ^^
Another dream to add to my long list of meaningful dreams lately. I have never had a dream like this before, and it disturbs me.
The earliest I can remember is being with my mom, my dad, my brother in our van. We drove to a high school and tried to get back out. We were in the middle of a field, except there was pavement on that field. My dad suggested going to some long winded road back out, but I saw a route that lead to the main road just a few metres from us, though it wasn’t a convention path out. We ended up driving through the grass and beside a fence and finally out.
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Envy Of My Bro Edmond
March 5, 2007 by Leeman, under Dreams, Visions & Family.
4:23am
‘Oddly’, I had another dream this morning where my brother and I were alien agents disguised as humans being lead around a hospital by a round Asian-type man with glasses and a sweater – he looked nerdy. We made sure it looked like a tour, that we were some VIP or something like that. When we got out of the hospital, my brother and I met up with Julia (Laura’s Julia), to celebrate her birthday. My bro drived, and I sat in the back seat, picked her up, went to Bridgepoint (so the old place but still existing today), and went into some candy gift shop. My brother got her a teddy bear with a heart on it. For some reason, I got jealous of my brother for receiving so much attention from her, even when I knew he was/is gay.
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Comfortably Numb
March 3, 2007 by Leeman, under Dreams.
3:34am
I would like to thank Michelle for linking the music video to Pink Floyd’s “Comfortably Numb” on You Tube. I also watched a fan-make of this song:
Anyway, the real purpose of this entry was a dream I had this morning/evening. I went to bed around 3pm yesterday and woke up at 2:51am this morning. I haven’t entered any dream journals for awhile now, but this one seems to be quite meaningful. I may leave some things out as they are too sensitive and/or I don’t remember enough of.
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Grand Admiral Thrawn VS Autechre
March 2, 2007 by Leeman, under Dreams, Inspirational.
12:07pm
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Bonus points to those who in the next 5 seconds can remember or guess who Grand Admiral Thrawn is without doing a search on the web. 8]
This is the type of music that motivates me to take a pop of E, sit back, and relax. Let’s just say, I’m not at home in my own environment at the moment.
So I was thinking that all this could still be a fragment of my imagination. Maybe I never woke up from my coma 13 years ago. Maybe I am still in that coma now, and every one in my ‘life’ are really fragments of my psyche. How tragic would it be if I am in a coma and I wake up decades later to find that I am a very old man, and a complete stranger to the world outside ‘this’ hospital?
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Sex, Just Add Water
January 31, 2007 by Leeman, under Dreams, Sex.
4:02pm
["Traces" by Enigma]
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Just came home from my client’s place. What a fun 4 hours! Weee! [sobs]
There was actually another entry before this that I submitted. It was a long one, but after about an hour, I decided to take it offline. There were way too much stuff in there that I found uncomfortable to release to the public. I even added the usual password to it, but decided that certain readers may be way too suspicious about stuff. Mind you, I have to say that if they at all suspected, it would be all in their heads. Alas, tact and strategy is something better suitable for blah blah blah.
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Coal & Diamond
January 3, 2007 by Leeman, under Dreams, Love Economics.
11:08am
Just got up from a 7 hour sleep. Not bad. I have to complete the working version of my client’s web site today though. [sigh]
Another dream…
I dreamt I was with 3 friends that I met through Patrick, one of them being Francis. We all agreed to drive vans separately to some location. The first two guys successfully drove to their destinations while me and this other guy made some wrong turns, but did eventually make it as well. Upon parking at a industrial centre of sorts, the view switched to birds-eye-view like an isometric video role playing game in mainly 2D. The other two guys easily made through the stage, where as my other friend and I separated and got stuck at dead-ends and got lost. However, we did eventually get to a clearing intersection and the other two guys made it to the ledge of some building. I pointed toward a gradual decline along the wall and so they went down to join us.
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