Mood: A hint of worry, a slight of frustration, otherwise, strangely calm
Drink: Les Combelles Cotes Du Rhone 2006
Tune: “Good bye my master” by Yoko Kanno
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I had a strange experience over the last few days. For a moment, I started to fall for a ’stranger’. Her life, where [...]
Categories: Friendship, Love Economics, Visions & Family
…you really care about and connect with, needs you, try not to make the mistake of providing serious objective advice. What they need is you, so give yourself to them.
[sigh]
Categories: Friendship, Love Economics
Suddenly, you realize that was it, that was just it and you wake up.
Categories: Enlightenment, Love Economics
Last night, I had one too many, though it wasn’t that bad actually. After the club, Pat and I went to #9. Adam came later. I got home just after 2:30am. I apparently crashed in bed, half asleep but at 3:49am, I receive a call from Kari whom I haven’t spoken [...]
Categories: Bunches Of Oats, Dreams, Enlightenment, Friendship, Love Economics, Realization, Sex
In the less than an hour of continued sleep after I dropped my dad off to work, I dreamed that I was going from my home to a place that resembled Simon Fraser University to drop off an empty Samsonite laptop case I own. It was night time and I walked past some kids [...]
Categories: Dreams, Love Economics, Sex
Now before anyone develops their own particulars, I will point out that I’ve been thinking about this for a long long long time and this entry takes on the objective perspective of that. There is nothing sinister nor demeaning through the words I will express here. However, know that this IS coming from [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Sex, Tea Girl
Often I wonder if all I have to do is try harder. Often I wonder if all I have to do is pick up the phone or maybe, even just drive over and grab her out. Sometimes, I ask myself, “Do I just have to say it?” or is that simply not enough [...]
Categories: Bunches Of Oats, Love Economics, Realization, Tea Girl, Visions & Family
At work, 3:08pm, just heating up my noodles with ham and bok choy.
Earlier (like 10 minutes ago), I surfed into Facebook and saw someone’s wall post say: “True love is when a person chooses to love you and only you for the rest of their lives :) If your not enough then it [...]
Categories: Love Economics
One of my friends is right when she said that many westernized Caucasians are over-simplified in how they think and do things. Remember, I said “many” and not “all” or “most”. I say “many” because of the ratio in the amount of people whom I’ve interacted with. This also includes Canadian and [...]
Categories: Enlightenment, Love Economics
…you can hear, see, feel what I hear, see and feel. Obviously, who really knows how to respond to entries like this?
At one time, it was almost nice to have a student actually listen to me, but I was no mentor. Far from. In his perspective, yes. In mine; [...]
Categories: Enlightenment, Friendship, Love Economics, Road Biking
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Categories: Friendship, Love Economics, Stuff
6:16pm
Sincerity is nice and honored. However, when I posted an ad on Craigslist for a female companion in the form of pure platonic friendship, I did not expect anything further to form from friendship. Rather, I did not use the friendship ad to alternatively seek out a girlfriend or possible sexual relationship of [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Visions & Family
2:38am
There’s a lot of things I would like to try and have tried some of those things. I continue to try to see if I can do some of those things, but something inside here [points to my chest] stops me at the last moment and sometimes, circumstance stops my choices from materializing. [...]
Categories: Inspirational, Love Economics, Sex, Sports & Traveling, Visions & Family
8:35am
Tune: “Nocturne” by Secret Garden
Drink: Ginseng Tea
I once saw a photo of a nude woman suspended in an ocean. I wanted to purchase that framed photo, but at the time, $180 US was a bit steep for me. As well, there isn’t a place in the house I can quite hang it up [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Sex, Sports & Traveling, Visions & Family
10:30pm
Tune: “Traveler” by Rhian Sheehan
Drink: Blue Ice Beer
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Has the view ever been better? Never. That’s because I’ve never had a view with a better view, nor a view that is equally as good. Which in clarity means the view is mediocre.
^^ View from my suite – [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Sports & Traveling, Visions & Family
11:49pm
Tune: “Sarabande Suite (Aeternae)” by Globus
Drink: Paarl Ruby Port
I had a vision, where I was completely clad in plate armour and I had a claymore drawn towards the sky. Then in one swift move, I stabbed myself through the chest, as the army moved beyond me for their own war. Then I drifted [...]
Categories: Dreams, Love Economics, Visions & Family
10:44pm
Just spent the last 2 hours trying to get 3 images to print. Let’s just say, it wasn’t successfully clear. So after installing HP’s printer drivers on my lapdog, and ‘porting’ the HTML from Oasis’ web site into Dreamweaver to correctly create an HTML page, I managed to print out the new seat [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Sex
1:24pm
Vanilla Sky was a really good movie with a really sad undertone. I’ve had thoughts about that, even before I watched that movie. [thinks a bit] Imagine that eh?
Originally, this entry was made a couple of days ago, but with sleepiness creeping up on me, I saved it and came back on [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Why Is The Moon?
6:03am
Tune: “Preliator” by Globus
Typing/writing while having some song blast in the background isn’t quite the same as when reading the same entry, because one tend to concentrate less on the words of the entry and divert a part of that attention to the song itself.
Not always, but this song has lyrics.
Good song though.
So this got [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Visions & Family
11:44am
Tune: “Kokoro no Kakera” by Hirasawa Hiroko (Tanaka Ryouko)
Mood: Friggin aching every where
Drink: Warm honey water
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NO MORE WINE tonight.
A couple of days ago, someone emailed me with her relationship-related problems. Don’t worry, I won’t reveal her name here.
She was married but in an outside intimate relationship with someone [...]
Categories: Love Economics
1:37am
To break out of my religious rants lately and back into Leemanism, I was just thinking throughout the day that there are things that has been stopping the ‘progression’ of certain situations from happening in the last year since I came back from Hong Kong, but before I continue, a tune for you…
Tune: “Kishida Shun” [...]
Categories: Dreams, Love Economics, Sex, Visions & Family
4:03am
Tune: “I Do” by Ilaria Graziano
Mood: Sexy, haha, no
Drink: Tropicana Orange Juice w/Pulp (Mmm yummy)
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Last night, someone called me while I was in an online conference call, and hastily told her I will treat her to AYCE sushi at Tokyo Ichiban. This night, after sushi, we went to [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Visions & Family
11:16pm
Women, without you, we will lose out on so much. We work hard for ourselves and our families. In all our varying degrees, we strive for different things – things that can harden us, and stress us out over time. Sometimes, this stress and the frustrations can turn us astray, and sometimes, [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Sex, Visions & Family
1:24am
To celebrate Michelle’s new entry, titled “Unconditional Love“, and also after I read my own entry and felt that it wasn’t really saying what I wanted to say. At least, the entry was all over the place and not quite to the point.
Over the last year and a bit, I’ve had the chance to [...]
Categories: Love Economics
4:23pm
Since this weekend is the ONLY two day weekend break I am having since many eons ago, I decided to look through MyOpera and found this on Aneeqa’s page called “A Play On Words”. I would also like to take this chance to plug Michelle’s MyOpera site:
http://my.opera.com/cricketsounds/blog/
1Q. Would you make a fool out of [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Sex, Visions & Family, Why Is The Moon?
11:14pm
So earlier today, I went online to talk to Jonathan about something…
That as you can see was 2:38pm Pacific Standard Time.
And then finally logged out at 11:06pm! ALMOST 8.5 HOURS OF MANLY MSN CONVERSATION!!!
The bulk of the conversation was about ‘random’ things. We talked about some hongers that got married from our high [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Visions & Family
11:48am
With the above question at DearCupid.org, I was flabbergasted at how a man whom is age 30 to 35 would ask such an uncanny question as that. I guess he hasn’t had much experience or mental maturity for this sort of thing?
My response was quite to the point.
This shouldn’t be a matter of “how [...]
Categories: Love Economics
10:29am
The first time I had ever heard “sighing profusely” was said by Jon a few years ago. I don’t know if it was “sighing profusely” exactly, but he did say “profusely”.
So I just came back from the dentist to fill in a cavity I had since late last year and got myself some sliced [...]
Categories: Love Economics
9:23pm
["Cyberbird" by Gabriela Robin]
The first time this song played was when I watched an episode of Ghost in the Shell SAC – I don’t remember if it was the first or second series though. The next time after that was when I got the song and in all the glory of being home alone, [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Visions & Family
11:52am
["Beyond The Borders" by Elysis]
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^^ This tune was made by one of my favorite musicians of the 90’s. It was an on-going inspiration for me to continue with what can be precious to me and my parents. Elysis, amongst others, were the encouraging force that motivated me [...]
Categories: Dreams, Love Economics, Visions & Family
5:31pm
["The Most Beautiful Duets" by Sarah Brightman & the London Symphony Orchestra feat Jose Cura]
Ever since Laura asked me about cloning, I thought it would be so great if I can clone myself, but that is only if my mind is intact. I have this vision that cannot be achieved in my lifetime. [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Sex
4:42pm
First, I would like to say that DearCupid.org is an excellent place to seek out open help from willing volunteer moderators, various contributors, and Andrew the operator and admin guy. Second, I would like to give a sincere apology to those that have put up with my shit from time to time. Lastly, [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Sex
6:24pm
Before I embark on a journey back into manual writing for my recent client, I’m going to post up an email someone sent me about her man joining the army and stuff.
hi i have a bit of a problem and i would love to hear any advice.
my bf of 2 years recently joined the army [...]
Categories: Love Economics
6:36am
I should try to fall back asleep at 9am, to get another 2 hours in before my work at a client’s at 11am. Got my barely 3 hours earlier though. If you get the chance, take a look at the McLaren F1 picture in my McLaren F1 VS Koenigsegg CCX entry and then [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Why Is The Moon?
7:27pm
Lots of work tonight. [sighs] So I read a thread posted by an 18-21 Ms. Anon just now with the following:
Hi. I have been together with my boyfriend for almost two years. When we first started going out, he was really sweet and attentive. And now some things have really started to change. [...]
Categories: Love Economics
5:52am
So I’m toiling away on my current project and finally decided to take a brief break before continuing. I thought about what Emma asked during the summer and think I can give a clear answer now.
The question was in her words, “Why wouldn’t you treat your girlfriend like a princess if you were to [...]
Categories: Love Economics
12:06am
["Rhodetry Salvage" by Url]
Lack of audio players lately? Too lazy to upload the songs.
So what was that last entry I deleted about? Well, it was my disturbing thoughts in raw format. I decided to delete it as it was really really raw. So raw, that you could have tasted the blood [...]
Categories: Love Economics
5:12pm
["Octopus City" by Url]
This is a tune I’ve been listening to since last night by the digital music collective known as Kahvi. Albert, it’s release 201 by Url.
I haven’t listened to any underground stuff for a long time, but ever since Pat decided to create his own stuff with Fruity Loops and Reason, I [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Visions & Family
10:04pm
Shit, I have so much stuff to do tonight and I slacked off the entire day today! My client is going to be MAD – MAD like those MILFs Against Drunk Drivers MADD!
Categories: Love Economics
11:08am
Just got up from a 7 hour sleep. Not bad. I have to complete the working version of my client’s web site today though. [sigh]
Another dream…
I dreamt I was with 3 friends that I met through Patrick, one of them being Francis. We all agreed to drive vans separately to some [...]
Categories: Dreams, Love Economics
4:43am
It’s cold again, with predictions of snow tonight and tomorrow night. [sigh]
["Voices" (Japanese Version) by Yoko Kanno]
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This song has a very deep sentimental value to me. The first time I heard it was back in the winter of 1995 when Jon, Tom, Roger, Jacek, and I went [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Summer in June, Visions & Family
7:20pm
["Forest In The Morning" by Akira Kosemura]
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^^ Turn up your speakers or put on your best headphones. I entered this entry in three different times. The first being the actual entry, then the second being the ‘revisions’ while I was listening to this song, and then the [...]
Categories: Bunches Of Oats, Love Economics, Sex
3:03am
["Torch Song" by Yoko Kanno]
Crappers, talk about weeks of procrastination! Well, I finally got into gear, reviewed the storyboards and decided to finish this 2nd demo for our project once and for all. How far did I go? Not far, but I am confident I can have all 15 pages done before [...]
Categories: Bunches Of Oats, Love Economics, Sex, Visions & Family
11:27am
In response to a guy’s trust issues for his girlfriend (LINK), I posted this answer:
Trust is a reinforced feeling of what we give to our partners, to allow ourselves the ease of letting go doubts about what they can choose to do. Trust isn’t something that you can tame by actively doing something. Trust is [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Visions & Family
11:50am
I would like to make a repost of another post from Lunatic Remarks about an observation on men and women in general:
Men:
1. All men are extremely busy.
2. Although they are so busy, they still have time for women.
3. Although they have time for women, they don’t really care for them.
4. Although they don’t really care [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Why Is The Moon?
2:16am
Dedicated to the new Me section, I name this post after it.
Over in HK, I got quite a bit of new clothing to add to my rather gray and black wardrobe that I’ve been wearing for the last few years. The only thing before I went to Hong Kong that were lighter, were my [...]
Categories: Bunches Of Oats, Love Economics, Visions & Family
Continued from PREVIOUS PAGE – click here. I decided to split this entry up into two parts, as the bandwidth was killing me.
^^ There’s something nice and artistic about the blur in this photo. Don’t u agree? 8]
Categories: Love Economics, Sports & Traveling, Summer in June, Tea Girl, Visions & Family
2:14am
Please note that it will take me a good two to three hours to upload the photos one by one – very tedious, and try to remember what happened that moment, then string it up to look real perty… [sigh] Oh, and I deleted the previous two entries. Sorry to all the [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Sports & Traveling, Summer in June, Tea Girl, Visions & Family
6:33pm
Again, some 20 somewhat year old entered a thread at DC that I took an interest to. His rant reminded me of when I was a teenager – how I thought about the world, life, and love. In response to his entry (LINK), I said the following:
Everything is trial and error. If [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Sex
5:40pm
["Smile" by Olive]
Awhile ago, I made a post in a thread at DearCupid.org called “Why do married men look at porn?” I defended why men look at porn, but as I was making my points across to a woman who was aggressively against porn of all forms, whom also made very judgmental criticisms of [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Sex
2:18am
You know the most common shit I hear from generic women are? Well, I won’t name who wrote this, but I’ll copy and paste a part of her comment here:
To me, the most important thing in life is happiness.
The keys to a lasting relationship are love, trust and responsibility.
The most common crap I hear [...]
Categories: Love Economics
1:58am
Equals to about 27.55979 years – approximately the length of time I’ve been around.
["Horizontal Departure" by Norman Feller]
^^ Western Dyke Trail overlooking the North West into the Georgia Straight – May 16th, 2006 cycling with Pat
I’m sleepy, so this will be short. The summer as with every other season has came and went. [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Sex, Visions & Family
12:07am
["Expand Your Mind" by No Noise]
Looking through my collection of high-res digital photos of the GVRD depresses me every time. I thought – how beautiful it is in a city from the outside-in, yet how ugly it really is on the inside-out.
["Believe" by Franka Potente]
You know, sometimes when I am at my silliest, I [...]
Categories: Bunches Of Oats, Love Economics, Visions & Family
11:05pm
["Fuzzy Kittens" by Super Massive Blackholes]
So August 26th finally came and went. There was really nothing to it, though I do embarrassingly admit that I tried avoiding the washroom because it was right next to their table. Unfortunately, due to my stupidity, I drank more than half a bottle of Yellowtail Shiraz and [...]
Categories: Bunches Of Oats, Love Economics, Sports & Traveling
1:33am
["Sirius 909" by Romolo di Prisco]
I was just thinking that back when I was younger, I wasn’t really a good person – not that I was a bad person, but just not really that great of a person. I mean, now that I look back at it, there were so many things that I [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Sex, Visions & Family, Why Is The Moon?
1:16am
["You Sang To Me" by Marc Anthony]
A few months after Virginia gave up on me, I heard this song play on the stereo. The lyrics didn’t click until around late August 2000.
All the while you were in front of me I never realized
I just can’t believe I didn’t see it in your eyes
I didn’t [...]
Categories: Dreams, Inspirational, Love Economics, Tea Girl, Visions & Family, Why Is The Moon?
9:30pm
["Who's The Man" by House Of Pain]
Okay, this is a strange concept for me okay? But, this started when Anthony started calling me “Adorable Man” early this year. He’s an entertaining person who also knows my brother. He’s the captain of his volleyball team. He called me Adorable Man because he [...]
Categories: Bunches Of Oats, Love Economics, Why Is The Moon?
1:22am
["Paper Doll" by PM Dawn]
As I have tonight’s glass of De Bortoli, I wanted to reply to Erica’s email from yesterday morning, but due to both my thighs being sore from all the down-hill hike we did Saturday, my mood for replying properly went down to nil. I also had a chance to talk [...]
Categories: Inspirational, Love Economics, Visions & Family, Why Is The Moon?
10:40pm
["Velveteen" by Yoko Kanno]
As I was riding home from the gym a few minutes ago, I was thinking that a lot of my female friends have been heart-broken in the recent months. Then as I was turning the 2nd corner to my garage, I whispered outloud, “What’s up with that?!”
Categories: Bunches Of Oats, Love Economics, Sex, Summer in June, Why Is The Moon?
3:17am
["Cyber Bird" by Yoko Kanno & Gabriella Robin]
We fear predictions made long ago
We exist far above the sky, and all material things
Categories: Love Economics
3:51am
< "Cloud Age Symphony" from the Last Exile OST>
While I was watching the last hour of Eight Below, I realized that today is the morning of July 15th. Today is the start of the Seattle to Portland ride – 200 miles, split between two days. Cindy and I registered for this back in [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Sports & Traveling
2:15am
A huge fascination of mine since childhood was the idea of super massive blackholes. In my early teens, I even developed my own super long term sci-fi story, that I am still working on today. It’s an ongoing project that I have never mentioned to anyone except to my grade 9 counsellor. [...]
Categories: Bunches Of Oats, Love Economics, Visions & Family
1:49pm
The most common question I get asked when I first meet a woman is, “So what do you do for a living?” I usually say that I am a designer of sorts, but sometimes I do say, “Ah just stuff.” [laughs]
This seems to bug some of them – me saying “Just stuff”. [...]
Categories: Love Economics
1:19am
["Santi-U (Macross Plus DVD Main Menu Version)" by Yoko Kanno]
The title of this entry means “If you give up your body, it will drown.”
I’ve always loved the sound of cannons firing. I am definity a fighter by heart. Unfortunately, I am born in the wrong era. My passion is buried deep within [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Sex, Tea Girl
11:35pm
So I did make it back alive after all. 8] Yeah I know, but always just in case. I should update my will as soon as my many mosquito stings go away. Going up that 10 kilometre trail was friggin painful. PAINFUL! Up that trail, I carried about 20 [...]
Categories: Bunches Of Oats, Love Economics, Sports & Traveling, Visions & Family, Why Is The Moon?
1:31pm
Linz recently posted up a thread on DC what our perfect partner would be. Their usual answers were “loyal, sexy, intelligent, etc”. Well, I went a step further. These aren’t exact, as the chemistry output of a person may connect with my desires differently with different people. Aside from the obvious [...]
Categories: Love Economics
1:58am
["Bornotto B" - Protogroup]
This will most likely be very weird for most people who stumble here. However, I’ll make an explanation before I enter this. Since I have always believed text and scripted words are primitive in communication, text and words alone can never explain my thoughts. Fortunately, it is myself that [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Visions & Family, Why Is The Moon?
1:27am
["Deep Reflections" - Blended]
I feel so dried-out that I haven’t ridden my bike since Saturday, and haven’t gone to the gym since Friday. [sigh]
So I finally went and cancelled all of my accounts with sites that I joined about two or so months ago. No, not porn sites. You know what? [...]
Categories: Inspirational, Love Economics, Visions & Family
1:41am
["Stronger" - Sugababes]
It’s time I go back to being myself after such a long a tedious journey. If you’re wondering, it’s not that I wasn’t myself, it’s just that I lost something along the way. It’s numbing to live like this. It was even more frustrating to be unable to find what [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Sports & Traveling, Summer in June, Tea Girl, Visions & Family, Why Is The Moon?
["Infinity" - Vargo]
I think I am hopelessly lost in the realm of intimate emotions. I wasn’t willing to let go and this is where it got me. I thought I would be stronger than this, but as I was wandering around in SWG, I felt that there is indeed a ‘pool of acid’ [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Sex, Tea Girl, Visions & Family, Why Is The Moon?
11:35pm
I’ve been tricked! Upon closer inspection, this is 4 litres of Dairy Glen milk! [waves fist] It tastes a lot better than Lucerne though. Lucerne milk tastes like a cow just gave birth and some of its birth-juices/slime somehow got mixed in with its milk. If you’re wondering how I [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Visions & Family, Why Is The Moon?
8:18pm
…so I can try to rescue her this time.
["Yearning" - Mono]
Yes, the dream has been bugging me. You know… Now thinking back on the dream, even though Cindy was a total bitch and a 2-two face immoral semi-slut in real life, in my dream, I wish that whatever force powered my dream, that [...]
Categories: Dreams, Love Economics, Why Is The Moon?
12:27pm
["Looking For The Sun" - Strange Flower]
I wanted to name this entry “Cindy Dick” but people might mistake that as something else. Plus, it’s a stupid name for an entry. I had another dream about Cindy. Although I had said before I won’t enter dreams here about her, for this one, I [...]
Categories: Dreams, Love Economics, Why Is The Moon?
3:02am
["Gate Crashers @ 56:00" (CD2)]
The single memory I remember from when I was a bit more than a year was lying in between my mom and my dad in bed at night. I was awake for some reason and the entire room flashed. I looked toward the window, through the separation of the [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Sports & Traveling, Tea Girl, Visions & Family
12:32am
["Inner Universe" by Yoko Kanno]
Today was a pretty hot day. When I was driving home from work, geez, I was wondering how people can survive in this weather – how people in Hong Kong can survive in their weather! I did some stuff, and called Pat at 7:30pm. We talked mainly about [...]
Categories: Bunches Of Oats, Love Economics, Sports & Traveling, Tea Girl, Why Is The Moon?
6:58pm
No, not myself. Remember, no more talk of blah! Mhm… This is my comment in response to a post on MySpace.com:
Categories: Love Economics
11:14pm
["ChillHouse Mix 2 (CD1)" - Cafe Del Mar]
Very delicious beats. 8]
The FTX team is on high-gear at the moment. A dozen emails has been passed back and forth since yesterday. Benny and Jason will be coming over to my place tomorrow evening to plug the PHP calls into the FTX UI. [...]
Categories: Fuzzy Things, Love Economics, Visions & Family, Why Is The Moon?
1:27am
["Voices" by Yoko Kanno]
The last few weeks has been quite productive. The last of the FTX UI is under way. I feel tired. It’s about time the FTX project comes to a close. After dawdling (on my end) since September 2005, I believe that my production criteria for the past few [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Visions & Family, Why Is The Moon?
11:54pm
[Listening "Can't Take My Eyes Off You" by Lauren Hill]
Stuck at home at 5 minutes before midnight. What’s tomorrow? Saturday the 6th. May 6th… What was I doing May 6th of last year?
Yeah… I need a beer.
Categories: Love Economics, Visions & Family, Why Is The Moon?
4:55pm
Dagnabbit! I’ve been stuck in Meow Meow Mode for the last month and a bit! Quickly, someone knock some sense into me!
Yes, what WOULD he do?
Categories: Fuzzy Things, Love Economics, Sex, Why Is The Moon?
11:22pm
Work mode coming on in about an hour. Just chilling. Came back from a work-out. Pat allowed me to increase weights on four exercises. It was a pretty good sweaty work-out. I noticed that it’s more relaxing with all the lights turned off, so I’m going to work-out next time [...]
Categories: Inspirational, Love Economics
11:23pm
Categories: Inspirational, Love Economics, Sex, Summer in June, Tea Girl, Visions & Family, Why Is The Moon?
1:44am
“I had to be free,
had to be free,
is all that I wanted.”
I really like the lyrics to this song. I’ve been listening to it the most tonight and yesterday.
So what gives? What do you mean? You mean, what’s with all the flood of new entries? Well, this is nothing. When [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Why Is The Moon?
2:40am
(Listening “Free” by Sarah Brightman)
This weekend was extra extra slow for some reason. The two weeks before that was zooming fast. Then it abruptly slowed down to a near-standstill. The hours drifted by as if the hourglass of life floated into zero gravity space, and the sands of ‘time’ hovered and bounced [...]
Categories: Inspirational, Love Economics, Visions & Family, Why Is The Moon?
2:46am
(Listening to a song by Andy Lau – still don’t know the name to it damn it)
WinRar finally finished compressing and splitting Cindy’s massive 2.2 gig folder up into five 420 meg files. Well, I mean it finished about 1.5 hours ago.
I was just updating my web site – NexusColony.com – finally closed the [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Visions & Family, Why Is The Moon?
8:26pm
This entry is named in honor of one of my favorite songs by Massive Attack.
(An hour and a half later…)
I went out for a 20 minute bike ride, came back changed, stuff, then Pat called me and we talked for 30 minutes, then some other stuff happened and since my bro’s out, I’m going to [...]
Categories: Fuzzy Things, Love Economics, Sex, Why Is The Moon?
1:59am
(Playing “The Tune” by Url)
Yumminess! I’m having my nightly dose of a shot and a half of Malibu and some sort of citrus surprise. Gotta try to be in bed by 2:15am LATEST!
So supposedly, I’m a very naughty person. [grin]
Seems like I’m entering an entry at least once every one or two [...]
Categories: Bunches Of Oats, Love Economics, Summer in June, Tea Girl
2:42am
Since I was hoping to get some leads on Virginia’s new contact info, I loaded up some super old emails from 1998 to 2002. Back in the day, I used Mail Warrior to read my emails.
Anyway, I went through the few folders I have and with this ambience playing in the background, I really [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Summer in June, Tea Girl
10:10pm
Came back from work around 5:27pm. My dad loves to stay within the speed limit, which is a good thing. It takes him about 23 minutes to drive about 2 kilometres. On a good morning, it takes me about 7 minutes to get to work. On a good afternoon, it takes me about 15 minutes [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Tea Girl
-> LINK: Is He The One? 10 Questions To Ask Yourself by Susan Swimmer <-
As Albert has elegantly put it, "That's all just bullshit. I didn't even have to read all in detail. I saw all the headings. It only works with women who aren't fucked up."
Mhm, damn right!
Let's just humor my readers for [...]
Categories: Love Economics
The other night – Saturday April 1st, I went to Savage Driving Range with Edmund. It was about 8pm, and it was freakin cold for some ungodly reason! The whole time I thought, while I listened to Ed drive his balls down the range was well of course… 8/ Every time he hit the ball, [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Tea Girl
If Cindy were still here today, I think she would cock her eyebrow at me if I told her about this. Oops, I wasn’t supposed to mention her name again, due to the explicit requests of… Mhm… Erm, anyway, I think it’s quite interesting: Mathematics of Love.
Mind u, it doesn’t make me feel better, but [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Summer in June
I was just going through some of her things when my mind drifted to last last Friday night… Then I became really angry, because… Yes, this…
AND FUCKING JUST FOR THE RECORD…
This is the email I sent to Christopher Shum AFTER Cindy told me what they did ONE DAY AFTER we broke up in August 2005. [...]
Categories: Love Economics
An excerpt from my MSN conversation with Albert on April 26th 2005:
Albert says:
She said, “You mentioned that you wanted to walk behind me or beside me to prove yourself that I can rely on you…I think you did show that yesterday while blading/biking however, what I prefer is someone who travels NEXT to me, not [...]
Categories: Love Economics
Ah, now I get it… Yeah I’m slow.
I was thinking (not actively) about how Cindy was treating me and came to the conclusion that she was trying to break me. I remember on Saturday 25th this month, we were talking at my front door and she admitted that not only was she trying to [...]
Categories: Love Economics
Actually, there is no ‘WoW Theory’. It’s real. Oh yeah! It’s VERY REAL!
Carlo called me ‘out of the blue’ earlier today, to see how I was, etc. We went out to Big River Red (or something like that) out near Silver City in Richmond. He had some sort of burger and I [...]
Categories: Love Economics
Well, as ‘most of you’ have known since reading my friggin MASSIVE email that I sent to Donna yesterday, I have been ‘busy’ since March 2005. I know I have neglected the majority of my friends and family. It was pathetic of me to have allowed someone like Cindy to take ‘control’ of my life. [...]
Categories: Love Economics
11:22am, March 25th
I was just over at her house about 25 minutes ago. Just came home.
I went over to her house around 6pm yesterday (Friday, 24th), sat and talked for a bit, molested/caressed her for a bit, then went to Flemming Elementary on the corner of 49th and Knight yesterday around 6:30pm. I watched [...]
Categories: Love Economics, Sex
10:07am
This goes against everything I believe in. I am indefinitely a weak, retarded fool. I also feel extremely bad for doing this – even moreso depressed now. I am indeed very weak to allow her to continue to hurt me. Where I can dish out blunt advice on DearCupid.org, [...]
Categories: Love Economics
12:38pm
I once titled one of my emails to her “Poking [Name] Plenty”.
(almost 2 hours later)
It has been only 1.5 days. I miss her a lot, but I’m not nearly as devastated as I was back in mid April 2005. This time, the difference being I am/was sick and tired of the way she treated me. [...]
Categories: Love Economics