…say it to me, because I will be able to comprehend it. I will probably even be able to reflect on it.
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One of my favorite tunes. “Creep” by Radiohead.
My mind, my heart is like this song. Even the lyrics.
I think unlike my friends, I have grown [...]
Categories: Bunches Of Oats, Realization
Last night, I had one too many, though it wasn’t that bad actually. After the club, Pat and I went to #9. Adam came later. I got home just after 2:30am. I apparently crashed in bed, half asleep but at 3:49am, I receive a call from Kari whom I haven’t spoken [...]
Categories: Bunches Of Oats, Dreams, Enlightenment, Friendship, Love Economics, Realization, Sex
Often I wonder if all I have to do is try harder. Often I wonder if all I have to do is pick up the phone or maybe, even just drive over and grab her out. Sometimes, I ask myself, “Do I just have to say it?” or is that simply not enough [...]
Categories: Bunches Of Oats, Love Economics, Realization, Tea Girl, Visions & Family
I have to admit, I am a little superstitious. My mom asks me from time to time, “Do you have hope for [insert things here]?” and I find that I cannot bring myself to serve and counter her worries. I can’t bring myself to say that I have hope for [insert things here] [...]
Categories: Realization
Sorry, I would have entered something earlier but I needed to clear my mind of excess.
I found the summer to be slightly warmer, but things have become colder for me on the inside. Of course, since Alex came back for the two or so weeks, I had a lot of fun connecting with old [...]
Categories: Realization, Sports & Traveling
The feeling is mutual. Wherever you go, where your eyes set its gaze, no doubt, you will feel that certain irregular pulse somewhere in your body. Do you mistake that as some minor physical ailment? Do you panic and go into a frenzy for a medical emergency? Rather, would you just [...]
Categories: Realization
11:56pm
Now with my ego aside and a lot less blunt, there are a lot of things that I can look forward to. I just wish that I wasn’t a part of it.
This is my ideal ‘fantasy’…
Categories: Realization
2:32am
A couple of nights ago, Albert, Jenny and I went to Denny’s after Albert gave us a nice tour around his new office in downtown. Albert noticed that something had recently changed with me. It’s nice to know that he recognized it. Except that I didn’t want anyone to actually confront me [...]
Categories: Realization
2:38am
Tune: “Lost Friend” by Dolce Triade
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Maybe I am oblivious to the common emotion that a lot of people feel if a said truth were to appear before them. Most people that say things about themselves is because they are uncomfortable with themselves, and they express it because they [...]
Categories: Realization
3:41am
An influx of entries this morning. Lots on my mind. The first is about unity before we can venture into space. The second one is about being judgmental and opinionated followed by religious absurdity, and now my last set of thoughts before bed about those whom are strong in their beliefs and [...]
Categories: Realization
2:50am
Tune: “What Bout My Star?” by Yoko Kanno, Sung by May’n (Sheryl Nome)
I’ve been taking sleeping pills recently finally. After years and years and years of insomnia and ‘messed’ up sleep patterns, the doctor prescribed Ran Zopiclone for me to be taken in half-pill dosages. So far, it works oddly. I don’t [...]
Categories: Realization, Why Is The Moon?
9:30pm
Tune: “Diamond Crevice” by Yoko Kanno, Sung by May’n (Sheryl Nome)
Of course, there is a lot I wish to see with these eyes of mine. There are a lot of things I won’t do to meet those desires but there are a lot of things I would do to meet those desires at the [...]
Categories: Realization, Visions & Family
4:37am
Tune: “Ignited (Piano Version)” by Toshihiko Sahashi
Drink: Warre’s Warrior Special Reserve
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However, to finish my bottle of Warre’s Warrior Port, I’ll have to keep entering some extra lingering thoughts before I really retire to bed.
Kanpai! Cheers!
One of my dreams is to travel to Japan and release both sides of [...]
Categories: Realization, Visions & Family
4:25am
Tune: “Aimo” by Yoko Kanno, sung by Nakajima Megumi
Drink: Warre’s Warrior Special Reserve
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If I were to ever end this blog site, I would say something along these lines:
The last X years had been eventful. There isn’t much to say further and you can continue to read my old [...]
Categories: Realization
3:04am
I was just laughing at a realization I came upon a few moments ago that if I didn’t have my friends and I didn’t have these responsibilities, I would be a very sick alcoholic right now. If I had the money and I did not have these responsibilities and the friends that actually tactfully [...]
Categories: Realization, Visions & Family
2:50am
A couple of days ago after I entered the previous entry, I thought and felt as if I was writing a letter to myself. Rather, maybe I was writing these thoughts down in case one day I lost my memory or maybe all these thoughts would act as a manual of sorts?
No I can’t [...]
Categories: Realization
11:55pm
I was just relaxing and holed out up in here for the entire day thinking about various things. Of course, I also engaged in some MSNing and phone conversations for work and watched roughly 5 hours worth of anime.
I’ve come to realize that there isn’t anything that can shock me. Rather, there isn’t [...]
Categories: Realization, Visions & Family