A City With Bright Lights

A City With Bright Lights

3:02am

My 9 year cousin Brandon came over Friday morning while I was at work. So far so good. I haven’t had the chance to get much done unfortunately.

I just wish to share with you a haiku I made the other night…

Silence are his lips.
A maze in his mind, he sleeps.
Waiting to awake.

The ‘innocence’ people talk about when referring to children are usually bundled with what they feel is ‘not there’. What may not be there, may not actually have anything to do with whether the child is innocent or not. My interpretation of that ‘innocence’ of a child is what little they know in general versus what happens to some adults as they age, and what happens is mainly a social interactive thing.

So my cousin Brandon, asks me questions, jokes around, and have a good laugh with me every time one or both of us does something really messed up, and as much as he may know about how things may work as you grow older, he doesn’t have the experience of such unfortunate and fortunate ‘wonders’. Thus my interpretation of a child’s ‘innocence’ is not whether they know what fucking, killing, and stealing means. My interpretation of a child’s ‘innocence’ is how deep they are in terms of experiencing fucking, killing, and stealing, etc.

Some people say that children don’t know any better. I beg to differ. I know under 10 children who know ‘better’ than most adults I know concurrently. They may not have the mental depth of complicated matters, plots within plots within plots and such, but in their ‘simplistic’ perspective, they know what to do and what not to do. At least, the ones I know that know better are like that.

Yes, as you grow older, and as you start feeling things differently than when you were a kid, your thoughts and emotions span out and touch other aspects, and then beyond that, but that’s the thing. In general perspective, as you grow older, as you experience more, as you allow yourself to feel more and accept and reject more, you are prone to be less honest, though possibly more sincere, than a kid who is much more honest but less sincere.

Being honest means you tell the absolute truth, and being sincere means you tell a version of the absolute truth, but not a lie.

Anyway, there is a lot of sincerity around, but there isn’t nearly as much honesty.

3:20am

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