The annexation of Leeman

I use to have a huge entry in here originally published February 7th, just to replace it with one word: “No.” right afterward. It was a huge entry about desires and rhetoric. I felt I was too exposed and removed the entire entry. It showed the deepest crevices of my thoughts and emotions. Things that I am sure 99.9999% of the people out there, including even my closest friends would take at literal value. Indeed, some can be taken that way, but they don’t know the ‘back-story’, so it would be easily taken literally.

Tune: “Change your mind” by Sunlounger
Mood: I am looking for someone to grab onto, but no one is there
Drink: Ginseng tea

[audio:changeyourmind.mp3]

I came back to this post to add this, because I felt I ‘owe’ my readers this ‘respect’ that they take their time to come here to glance through my entries. So here it is in a ‘nutshell’…

There is a certain place that runs through the back of my mind every day. I cannot control it and definitely cannot stop it. It has annexed my wits. The only reason why I haven’t given in to this annexation is what little I feel in my heart. This distance and the common arguments Amber and I have, the constant fighting the constant misunderstanding, the constant inability to ‘dance’ with me through conversations of pull, give, take, push has really taken a massive toll on what little I have in my heart. I have to constantly reason with myself, constantly apply logic to my feelings, just so I can hinder the annexation of my wits to reach the conquest of my heart.

Unfortunately, that is all I can say without giving away the exposure.

3 thoughts on “The annexation of Leeman

  1. Pete

    I’ve always wondered what ginseng tea tasted like ^^

    According to wikipedia it says “forms of ginseng enhance libido and copulatory performance”, very apt for you GS hehe

    Hope you feel better soon

  2. monster

    Thanks Pete, I actually had a huge entry here, but once I woke up and felt ‘lame’ to my post, I replaced it with my alter-ego’s answer: “No”.

    -_-

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