Thoughtful Nutmeg

A man once said he has a short time to live and this would be one of the last things he could do, before his time passed. People don’t take him seriously, like I don’t … A man once saidRead more

In The Dark Knight, Batman said something that truly inspired me at the end of the movie. I have finally found something, a phrase coinciding my views on religion, politics and social dynamics in a … In a nutshellRead more

[audio:Pulse.mp3] Tune: “Pulse” by Yoko Kanno Drink: Kokanee Mood: Stressed out, tired, sleepy, horny As some of you know, I’ve been corresponding with a girl in Germany for the last few months. The last two … Failed perspectiveRead more

About ten years ago, I made a list of the type of girl that I would be attracted to and about three or four years ago, I made another similar thing here. I always have … Factors of AttractionRead more

Ultimately, I believe that the act of being cheered up and cheering up are things to do for short-term problems and not for problems that are constant and continuing. If I am being slowly digested … Winding downRead more

A couple of nights ago, I had a dream where I was finally able to reach Virginia via phone calls. It had been a reoccurring nightmare for a few years after we stopped seeing each … I reached herRead more

I admit that I have a festering bitterness that’s getting worst by the second. By the way, All Dressed Crispers are really yummy. I could not find a friend to express this to. So I … NonchalantRead more

[audio:d_change.mp3] One of my favorite tunes. “Change” by Deftones. I’m just very stressed right now, coinciding Amber. It’s compounded, but ultimately, has nothing to do with her. It’s all me. It’s all in my head. … Canned TunaRead more

I used to think it takes a lot to continue ‘writing’ in my online diary, as the entries these last few months used to drain me dry every time I complete one. What I realized … Smacking the kitty aroundRead more

Pat showed me Jocady’s blog a few minutes ago, which inspired me a little to keep my blog updated again. I just now need to redo the back-end because WPMU screwed up my upload folders.

Tune: “Just Be” by Tiesto Drink: Green Tea Mood: Horny [yt]KZcCfHi4818[/yt] The lyrics to this song goes like this: You can travel the world But you can’t run away From the person you are in … Just BeRead more

Mood: Tired Drink: Sho Chiku Bai Sake Tune: “Enough Love” by Mandalay [audio:Mandalay_-_Enough_Love.mp3] I had a MSN conversation with a friend just now. It ended negatively. In essence, she hung up on me. I sighed … IrritatedRead more

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I find it a lot easier to enter my thoughts here these days because all but one of my friends have disappeared from this site. In the past, the biggest issue I had was that … It’s easierRead more

I might have the flu, I am unsure. I could check myself into emergency, but no. My entire body is aching and my stomach hurts. My head feels a bit weird. I almost feel like … When everything hurtsRead more

Mood: Settled Drink: Sho Chiku Bai sake Tune: “Active Radio Activity” by iLL [audio:04-ActiveRadioActivity.mp3] …that no one was there for me when I needed them. Come on, you *should* know me by now, I don’t … Unfortunately, I have also realized…Read more

Mood: Settled Drink: Sho Chiku Bai sake Tune: “At Last” by Etta James [audio:07_Etta_James_-_At_Last.mp3] This sake isn’t bad at all. Sweet aroma, sweet first taste and hard when it’s in. Sounds like I’m talking about … Strange & Irritating ExperienceRead more

For some time, I’ve maintained a certain relationship with someone. At one point, it grew to something uncontrollable emotionally, but calmed down quite a bit afterwards, like an orgasm. After a few months of silence, … Do or don’tRead more

Mood: Settling Drink: A glass of Black Opal Shiraz would be nice right about now Tune: “Samba é Amor” by Bebel Gilberto [audio:10_Samba_e_Amor.mp3] And of course, I forgot where I stood in all things. I … In the scheme of thingsRead more

…is that the switch had been turned on to reveal this unstable aspect of my psyche. Damn it. Damn it to hell! She was a reflection of me, except she poured her heart out to … Alas, the scary thought…Read more

Mood: Reflecting, pulling myself back out of the grave I have been digging for myself Drink: A shot of Glenfiddich would be nice right about now Tune: “I Am What I Am” by OceanLab [audio:OceanLab_-_I_Am_What_I_Am.mp3] … I Am What I AmRead more

Mood: A hint of worry, a slight of frustration, otherwise, strangely calm Drink: Les Combelles Cotes Du Rhone 2006 Tune: “Good bye my master” by Yoko Kanno [audio:Good_Bye_My_Master.mp3] I had a strange experience over the … I need youRead more

…you really care about and connect with, needs you, try not to make the mistake of providing serious objective advice. What they need is you, so give yourself to them. [sigh]

Mood: A wee bit anxious. Drink: Les Combelles Cotes Du Rhone 2006 Tune: “It’s natural to be afraid” by Explosions in the Sky [audio:It’s_Natural_To_Be_Afraid.mp3] How do you expect to refine the future, if you keep … Bread CrumbsRead more

Mood: somewhat horny Drink: hot green tea Song: “A Kiss to Build a Dream On” by Louis Armstrong [audio:01_Louis_Armstrong_-_A_Kiss_To_Build_A_Dream_On.mp3] This was originally posted at a forum responding to a girl who asked why her penpal … Friends & ExperiencesRead more

This is directed to Patrick – you once commented on one of my entries titled “Full of Uncertainty“, dated September 13th, 2007. You said: Ah… I remember the time when we ran into all those … Full of Uncertainty, retakeRead more

…an album from Beastie Boys. “Get It Together” by Beastie Boys: [audio:Get_It_Together.mp3] Just because I’m vulgar sometimes, it doesn’t mean I am tactless. It comes within context of the subject. Many of my friends think … Ill CommunicationRead more

…let him go. Yes, the future is ‘vague’, but know this: let him go now and for the rest of your life, regret and constantly think about “what if?” OR go for it and live … Don’t…Read more

Obviously does not exist yet. If each and everyone of you stand before me, I would divulge it all to each of you. My time has passed and THIS is my retirement. I wish I … The ImperiumRead more