Bonus points to those who in the next 5 seconds can remember or guess who Grand Admiral Thrawn is without doing a search on the web. 8]
This is the type of music that motivates me to take a pop of E, sit back, and relax. Let’s just say, I’m not at home in my own environment at the moment.
So I was thinking that all this could still be a fragment of my imagination. Maybe I never woke up from my coma 13 years ago. Maybe I am still in that coma now, and every one in my ‘life’ are really fragments of my psyche. How tragic would it be if I am in a coma and I wake up decades later to find that I am a very old man, and a complete stranger to the world outside ‘this’ hospital?
The mind can be a powerful thing – it holds are the chemicals that make up our emotions, our actions, reactions, the things we dream about, the methods to think and process, and the knicks and knacks that keep us going to varying degrees. Sometimes, I wonder if all of this could simply be in my head, and just maybe that when I fall asleep, all those images I experience – all those worlds and ‘people’ are really, real people, real experiences and real places, and maybe all of this are all really just a dream instead.
Like how could I possibly have deja vu? How could I possibly dream about places I have never been to, and many years later ‘revisited’? How could the dozens of conversation with Jon yielded in similar or same words at the same time over and over and over again? Coincidence? Those sort of coincidences seem a bit far fetch.
Jon will know what I am talking about here, but remember over a decade ago, Tom and I were talking about Glitches? I don’t feel or see them anymore, but I still remember them. Then remember when the first Matrix movie came out and in the movie, it talked about Glitches? How uncanny is that eh?
There’s just something not quite connecting with everything. It might mostly just be me, but how do I know that all of you aren’t me? The thing is tho, despite my suspicions, I still believe the benefit of the doubt rather than believe in the doubt, because this is the safer route/approach.
What would Grand Admiral Thrawn do?
Most likely not what James Bond and his Graveyard Symphony would have done. It would have been way too costly. Then again, I would most likely never turn mine into a giant spider who ‘warped’ into enemy battleships and tore them apart from inside out.
So the song you’re listening to, if you clicked the play button up top is “Foil” by Autechre. If one day, I am wealthy and if I choose to live alone, please don’t tell strangers about stuff. I rather continue to drive a mini-van and stay low-key (except weekends, when I will be on the Isle of Man with my 21 year old McLaren F1) than to zip around in a CCX (which by the way IS in NFS Carbon – gorgeous car) and cause heads to turn. Just not my sort of thing. It’s nice to see eyes steer toward my designs without ever knowing its origins. It give me a great sense of incomplete pleasure.
Sickening isn’t it?
Must sleep now…
PS: Sabine Schmitz is absolutely stunning. I love her cockiness and super competitivenes. She is a major turn on – very much so. 83