Thoughtful Nutmeg

I reached her

A couple of nights ago, I had a dream where I was finally able to reach Virginia via phone calls. It had been a reoccurring nightmare for a few years after we stopped seeing each other in 2000 that every time I tried calling her, I would dial the wrong number or she would pick up and there was static noise or it was very short. This time, I called her multiple times and every time, it reached her and we talked for a long time in each of the calls.

I could not for the life of me understand why this ‘positive’ dream happened now. There is nothing I can relate to that is internal. There is also no one I can relate it to externally.

On that same note, I also had a dream that I kissed Vanessa last night. Mind you, that’s just a dream and again, I cannot relate that to anything. Dreams are usually metaphors of something else. I feel I needed to explain that for clarification, even though I ‘shouldn’t’ have to. /sigh

1 thought on “I reached her

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *


Leemanism is about my views, my thoughts, and my feelings with as little filtering as possible. These concepts are not reflected in the people I value and are associated with. People who accept me, adhere to the parts where we are compatible and tolerate the parts where we are not. So however people perceive me to be, ultimately it obviously doesn't mean the friends I mention in this blog are the same as me. It means it's possible they are similar or the same, as well as different than me. It is highly unusual for people to be completely compatible with each other.

With that out of the way, and to make things clear, I never said I am a good person, nor am I trying to be one, though I would rather live with the empathetic than with the cruel. I would not deliberately do harm. I rather stand up against injustice than to pretend it doesn't exist. However, I understand consequences. The police is there to enforce the law, but not deter crimes from happening. Which means people must do what they must do to protect themselves, before the law of the land takes over and even then, the law of the land isn't there to protect you. It's there to protect the general consensus. Even if you may be right, society may deem you wrong - even most of your friends may side with society, than protect you. The law will almost always side with society.

We are few. Stay safe. (•̀ᵥᵥ•́)