Thoughtful Nutmeg


I almost walked out of my office today quitting my job. What I found frustrating about my job in the last few years is that my boss, though a nice lady, doesn’t actually listen. She accuses me of arguing because I don’t want to get my work done. The work she proposes has to do with understanding the company’s products.

Now, I’ve been with that company for four years this month. I know the basics to most of their products. In fact, I was the one who created 90% of the manuals for their products. However, since about two years ago, I’ve been asking my boss for further specifications and mechanics of the products. The reason is so I can get a better grasp at the products. Therefore, when I do market them out, I know what I am talking about and I would have further knowledge to back up that marketing.

The problem is that my boss resists every attempt for me to get that information. Her reason has to do with two things: 1) the factory refuses to supply important data to safeguard their ‘secrets’ and 2) it is my job to research on the net the information I need. Which as you can see, is ludicrous. What infuriated me even more was that she compared me to a manager at another company, whom had worked at that company far longer than I and not only that, has had the opportunity to directly interact with the people in the industry to get that information. I, on the other hand was hired in to be their creative designer. It seems quite ‘unfair’ that I must be put through these accusations, when all she has been doing is resist all my attempts to get information.

My boss is a nice lady, but she frustrates me. I do admit one thing though: I have become more lazy in terms of designing our manuals. That I can brush up on, but if she needs me to do any constructive marketing, I need specifications, details and the mechanics of our products. I told her that it’s one thing to be a cookie cutter salesperson, but if anyone really want to compete on the market, they need more authority in what they want to do. Information is power. Right now, it seriously feels like I’ve been given a gun that barely know how to use, to go into a war, that I am not trained to do. Her excuse: “You need to do more research.”

So I have to research other companies to find out more about our own products. That doesn’t help.


Alas, she’s the one putting food on the table for my parents, so to speak. I’ll brush up on my laziness on manuals and apply more ‘detail’, but in the meantime, I’m just going to drink to my heart’s desire, until 2:30, where I have to go to bed and then drive my dad to work in the morning.

Kids, if you don’t want to end up like me, I suggest you don’t waste your youth on petty pursuits as I did. Sure, building character is one thing, but without stability, character is shit.

PS: that creature is called a “Sproing”. Lively bug-like winged creature that likes to dance with its own babies. It’s their form of communication, much like the dancing bees do these modern times.four

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Leemanism is about my views, my thoughts, and my feelings with as little filtering as possible. These concepts are not reflected in the people I value and are associated with. People who accept me, adhere to the parts where we are compatible and tolerate the parts where we are not. So however people perceive me to be, ultimately it obviously doesn't mean the friends I mention in this blog are the same as me. It means it's possible they are similar or the same, as well as different than me. It is highly unusual for people to be completely compatible with each other.

With that out of the way, and to make things clear, I never said I am a good person, nor am I trying to be one, though I would rather live with the empathetic than with the cruel. I would not deliberately do harm. I rather stand up against injustice than to pretend it doesn't exist. However, I understand consequences. The police is there to enforce the law, but not deter crimes from happening. Which means people must do what they must do to protect themselves, before the law of the land takes over and even then, the law of the land isn't there to protect you. It's there to protect the general consensus. Even if you may be right, society may deem you wrong - even most of your friends may side with society, than protect you. The law will almost always side with society.

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