Thoughtful Nutmeg

I need a friend tonight…

…but no one is around and of course, I didn’t call anyone.

The only person I’ve known… Actually no never mind. Laura, you can ask me later when I finally come out of my hermit shell.

Patrick took me out to a pasta place for my birthday. What a nice cozy place. That was about half a month ago. Thanks for all your birthday wishes, but honestly, wish all of you forgot about it. Amber also called and sang me the happy birthday song. So sweet.

Tune: “By Your Side” by Sade

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I’ll tell you what I miss though… I miss the days or nights where half a bottle shared between two people sitting across from each other in a dark room listening to music like this, solved the evening’s stresses and achieved relief from the week’s work woes – amongst other memorable days and evenings.

At times, I remind myself: “It’s not a bargaining chip to do things for others” and I try my best naturally ‘try’ my best to never feel or think that what I do is a bargaining chip for anything. I cannot expect others to be as perceptive and ‘omniscient’ as I am. 😉

Bed time. Good night Leeman.

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Disclaimer

Leemanism is about my views, my thoughts, and my feelings with as little filtering as possible. These concepts are not reflected in the people I value and are associated with. People who accept me, adhere to the parts where we are compatible and tolerate the parts where we are not. So however people perceive me to be, ultimately it obviously doesn't mean the friends I mention in this blog are the same as me. It means it's possible they are similar or the same, as well as different than me. It is highly unusual for people to be completely compatible with each other.

With that out of the way, and to make things clear, I never said I am a good person, nor am I trying to be one, though I would rather live with the empathetic than with the cruel. I would not deliberately do harm. I rather stand up against injustice than to pretend it doesn't exist. However, I understand consequences. The police is there to enforce the law, but not deter crimes from happening. Which means people must do what they must do to protect themselves, before the law of the land takes over and even then, the law of the land isn't there to protect you. It's there to protect the general consensus. Even if you may be right, society may deem you wrong - even most of your friends may side with society, than protect you. The law will almost always side with society.

We are few. Stay safe. (•̀ᵥᵥ•́)