My sleep is all over the place, but it’s really the same cycle in repeat since my teens. Except this time, the weekend was Mirtazapine induced sleep. Yesterday, I was awaken to the buzzer going … Another Typical DayRead more
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Tea, Earl Grey, Hot
A long sleep, a short few hour nap, perhaps even a less than 10 minute power nap can yield some of the most vivid dreams. My dreams are often vivid and very detailed. They even … Tea, Earl Grey, HotRead more
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Slipping Away
It’s 1:10pm, 2024, September on a Tuesday. Today is the 10th. So I have a decision to make. I vowed to make Amber a star when we got married. There is a lot of resistance … Slipping AwayRead more
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Anneversary
The majority of people I know celebrate anniversaries of varying types. However, they do so on a specific day once a year. Namely, their wedding anniversaries and/or the first time they met. Amber and I … AnneversaryRead more
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Truly or superficially committed?
Thalia told me that she can never be in a polyamorous relationship because she cannot fathom a non-committed relationship. Which made me laugh out loud, because her monogamous relationship is anything but committed. Where as … Truly or superficially committed?Read more
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Nightmare On Cambie Street
In the last two hours of my sleep, I dreamt that I met up with Thalia. The first half of the dream was mostly a blur. We were in a cozy middle class neighbourhood with … Nightmare On Cambie StreetRead more
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The Hypocrisy of Self Respect
Near the end of Long Lasting Relationships, I said… While of course, people should learn to love themselves first before seeking others out, the reality is that most people don’t love themselves, or at the … The Hypocrisy of Self RespectRead more
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Long Lasting Relationships
Thalia asked me, maybe a bit rhetorically using our friendship as a basis for this question, what I thought are the key elements of creating and maintaining long lasting relationships. Basically, we both agree that … Long Lasting RelationshipsRead more
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Everything Everywhere All At Once
Awhile ago, I asked if Laura had watched Everything Everywhere All At Once and she told me she didn’t really understand the movie. I shrugged at the time, because I hadn’t watched the movie yet. … Everything Everywhere All At OnceRead more
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Life Draining But Not Without Success
Anxiety is debilitating. Twice now – 5 weeks ago for 3.5 days, then two days ago for a full 1.5 days. Anxiety came as a hammer, followed by intense depression. The trigger for the one … Life Draining But Not Without SuccessRead more
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Lacking Imagination
A few weeks ago, I came across a post from a right-leaning Star Trek fan who denounced Star Trek Discovery as being ‘too woke’, and condemned Star Trek The Next Generation as being ‘too left’ … Lacking ImaginationRead more
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The Endless Loop of Poverty
Earlier on a post about abortion in the USA, I saw a short commentary between California989 (pro-choice) and Chris_Epps72 (anti-abortion). This was what was exchanged between the two of them: California989: “George Carlin said it … The Endless Loop of PovertyRead more
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Salutatorian Crush
Clearly I have unresolved issues from my far past, but exactly what those things are, only I will know of them, unless someone else comes along to figure out the mystery. It was a long … Salutatorian CrushRead more
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Age Difference Prejudice
Every now and then, a post from ToxicReddit comes across my feed on Instagram. For the most part, all of the AITA questions have obvious YTA answers from the first sentence. “AITA for saying the … Age Difference PrejudiceRead more
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Redragon M901K2 All-In-One Tool
After buying the Redragon M901-K-2 mouse from Amazon Prime, I realized the driver download link for M901-K-2 were broken in the two official Redragon websites: Redragonzone.com and Redragonusa.com. So I spent the next three hours … Redragon M901K2 All-In-One ToolRead more
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Diminishing Oneself Because Society Says You’re Beautiful
Last year, Patrick told me his former fuck buddy mentioned that it didn’t make any sense, that he would have any issues finding a girlfriend coinciding his looks. Patrick interpreted that statement as a good … Diminishing Oneself Because Society Says You’re BeautifulRead more
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On The Rocks With Cindy
My long term memory is a blessing and a curse. To help me with this blog post, I do have many past blog entries dating all the way back to early 2006 to help with … On The Rocks With CindyRead more
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A Walk Before Dawn
When I think about the events around and during 2011, as opposed to just thinking about the year, I get a truer sense that it was actually quite a long time ago. My attitude, behaviour, … A Walk Before DawnRead more
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Good Enough For Whom?
Earlier, Marlene posted a statement in question format, “if a guy doesn’t pay for her on their first date, does it mean he’s not interested?” Then she followed that up with “Is that old fashion … Good Enough For Whom?Read more
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Flickered Light
Elyssa was my teen almost-sweetheart. I was 16-17 in grade 11 and she was 15-16 in grade 10. We both attended the same class. One day during the first two weeks of school, a classmate … Flickered LightRead more
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Someone Else Always Has It Worst
So I went back to Quora, because I’ve been bored and a bit antsy. Recently, I came across this answer by Steven Burton for a question that asked, “Do you personally know someone who has … Someone Else Always Has It WorstRead more
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Missing The 80s
Sleep Country, Winners, Jysk, the Liquor Depot, and whatever the corner lot is at the north-west quad of Lansdowne Mall, all used to be Woodwards. Specifically near the entrance to Sleep Country, used to be … Missing The 80sRead more
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The Gift Of Polyamory
Recently, I read an article on Bolde, titled “The Problem With Polyamory” by Ossiana Tepfenhart. I read the entirety of the seven sections she provided. To summarize her thoughts, polyamory does not work because… At … The Gift Of PolyamoryRead more
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Desert Raindrops
Stress, depression, restlessness, loneliness, emptiness is what describes what I have been feeling for the last few days. Patrick messaged me a couple of days ago how after he flew back to Toronto, he succumbed … Desert RaindropsRead more
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Enigmatic Encounters
While it’s true that the majority of my sexual and intimate encounters in the past were made online, then met in person later, I find that the circumstances were a lot easier back then. I … Enigmatic EncountersRead more
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One Joke From 23 Years Ago
The Tokyo Olympics Opening Ceremony director, Kentaro Kobayashi was fired for a holocaust joke he made 23 years ago. If his pattern of behaviour since 23 years ago has been the same, then I would … One Joke From 23 Years AgoRead more
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A Day In Her Shoes
Awhile ago, I propositioned my friend Pascale if I can sexually vent to her every now and then. The idea intrigued her. She asked what my expectations are of her. After some back and forth, … A Day In Her ShoesRead more
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Deflection of Responsibility
My friend Jianna is a Christian who has over the years, became less conservative with her beliefs. However, in all of the years I’ve observed her reactions coinciding her own religion, there has never been … Deflection of ResponsibilityRead more
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Oversimplifying Human Biology
This is a continuation of another blog post I uploaded a few days ago about Erin Micklow, where she openly talked about being sexually harassed by a guy jerking himself off in the near distance, … Oversimplifying Human BiologyRead more