If there is one thing I have always known about myself, it’s that I crave connection – not the shallow exchange of words and desires, but something that lingers beyond the touch, something that weaves … Knowing How to Wield Her Boundaries, Makes Me Want Her Even MoreRead more
There are days when my mind wanders beyond the limits of what is, into the realm of what could be. This morning, I found myself entangled in a discussion with Sylvie. We spoke of governance, … The Crown & The Code: A Monarchy of Wisdom, A Governance of LogicRead more
So I’m putting this out into the world – another chance to see if someone out there feels what I feel. Ideally, someone local (Richmond, B.C.), someone whose presence isn’t just fleeting, but something that … A Name Never Spoken, Yet It Lingers on Your TongueRead more
For over two decades, Tahliya and I played the same unspoken game – moments of emotional intimacy, missed chances, and tension that never quite went away. And in 2024, I made my last attempt at … The Truth She Will Never SpeakRead more
People have wandered through my life like travellers passing through an ancient, mystical bazaar—some merely ghosts of passing footsteps, others lingering like the scent of exotic spices, and a rare few carving their names into … A Perfect Sextet of Passion and CompanionshipRead more
The dream began on what felt like a summer evening around 8:30pm. The sun had set, but the sky still glowed faintly, partially obscured by scattered clouds. I stood on a wide sidewalk, its surface … Black HeartRead more
Marlene joined our gaming group over a decade ago, introduced by a mutual friend. Initially reserved, she gradually integrated, sharing aspects of her life and personality. By 2022, she presented herself as an open-minded, sexually … A Kingdom for a Loaf of BreadRead more
A long sleep, a short few hour nap, perhaps even a less than 10 minute power nap can yield some of the most vivid dreams. My dreams are often vivid and very detailed. They even … Tea, Earl Grey, HotRead more
It’s 1:10pm, 2024, September on a Tuesday. Today is the 10th. I stand at a crossroads now, faced with a decision that weighs heavily on my heart. I made a vow to Amber years ago … Slipping AwayRead more
The majority of people I know celebrate anniversaries of varying types. However, they do so on a specific day once a year. Namely, their wedding anniversaries and/or the first time they met. Amber and I … AnneversaryRead more
In the last two hours of my sleep, I dreamed of meeting Laura. The first half of the dream was hazy, but I recall us wandering through a cozy middle-class neighbourhood. It was early evening, … Nightmare On Cambie StreetRead more
Clearly I have unresolved issues from my far past, but exactly what those things are, only I will know of them, unless someone else comes along to figure out the mystery. It was a long … Salutatorian CrushRead more
My long-term memory is both a gift and a burden. To write this, I revisited past entries – some dating back to 2006 – piecing together the fragments of a connection that started with promise … Four Candies Out of TenRead more
Lisa V was my almost-sweetheart during my teenage years. I was 16 or 17 in grade 11, and she was 15 or 16 in grade 10. We shared a class that year. Early in the … Flickered LightRead more
Lisa V was supposed to meet me today at my place, but messaged me at the last minute, she won’t be able to make it. She apologized and I told her it was okay, especially … Flaked OutRead more
The dream had split up into two continuing parts. Unfortunately, I don’t remember the bulk of it. As I woke up, it was still fresh in my memory, as if I was remembering something I … 43rd Street Bus LoopRead more
These days, I’m barely sleeping enough that will last me the hours I need to call it a proper day. I sleep somewhere between 11:30pm and 12:30am, then get up between 2:30am and 5:30am. Tonight, … Somewhere Else, There Is Another MeRead more
I met Madam M through a Craigslist ad during the summer of 2006. After a few email exchanges, she texted me one evening and invited me to meet. I drove to Richmond, picking her up … Potty Mouth Madam MRead more
Yesterday, I had a dream, that in my waking moments, made an emotional impact on me, which unfortunately faded to a point I completely forgot about as the morning unfolded until this morning where this … The Journey OnRead more
The first part of my entire dream sequence is nearly completely gone from my memory, except that it had something to do with Star Wars’ imperial naval pilots, TIE fighters, me being one of them, … Anywhere But HereRead more
Lessons in Love, Loss, and Accountability As I moved beyond my teenage years, my experiences with women varied, though they were primarily with those of Chinese descent. One notable exception was Lisa, a Vietnamese girl … Reminiscing On My SituationshipsRead more
Since about three weeks ago, I went back to playing WoW with Amber and recently have been looking into Transmog sets for my Shaman and Paladin. I spent hours looking for something that fits with … Looking For My Shoulder PadsRead more
Someone said somewhere that if you tell yourself something enough times, your brain will believe it eventually. Meaning, you can lie to it as much as you can and it will eventually believe that lie. … Too good for meRead more
I had a number of dreams this morning. I started out at a futuristic city. I don’t remember much from this segment, but I attracted three much older women in their 40s and 50s, all … A Brief RendezvousRead more
Tune: “Say All I Need” by One Republic Around mid-February, I started corresponding with a girl, Iris, through Skype and email, after she reported someone for stealing her profile bio on a penpal site. We … Between Dreams and DisillusionsRead more
Unlike most other nights and mornings, I actually went to work with about 3.5 hours of sleep. My brain isn’t functioning that well and I’m not joking this time. I actually feel quite bad right … The Fields Of Mount FujiRead more
Not a single day or night passes without Erica crossing my mind. Whether I’m at work, at home, out with friends, riding my bike, or hiking in the quiet of nature, she is always there, … Her Sweetness Just RightRead more
With a total of 53 kilometres, Pat, Jason, and yours truly made all the around the Vancouver Convention Centre and back to Richmond. We rode from Pat’s place, across the Arthur Liang, up through Cypress … Tour De Patrick III (53km)Read more
5:27am Tune: “Slept So Long” by Jay Gordon I’m quite exhausted right now and should have been in bed around 2am but I needed to finish this thing and I’m still doing it. A few … The Visionary That Saved The WorldRead more
1:56pm Sorry. My long awaited entry for the last Hong Kong 2007 photo entry set took awhile. However, here it is in all it’s glorious might! ^o^ Hong Kong 2007 – The City That Never … Hong Kong 2007 – Part 3 of 3Read more
2:39pm The dream started with an ‘alternate’ scene from one of the Ghost Busters movies with all four of the original cast standing in the middle of what looked like a deserted construction yard. They … Something Wicked This Way ComesRead more
10:38am Hong Kong 2007 – The City That Never Sleeps – CLICK HERE Hong Kong 2007 – Part 1 of 3 – CLICK HERE Hong Kong 2007 – Part 2 of 3 – CLICK HERE … Hong Kong 2007 – Part 2 of 3Read more
1:36am HKT Hong Kong 2007 – The City That Never Sleeps – CLICK HERE Hong Kong 2007 – Part 1 of 3 – CLICK HERE Hong Kong 2007 – Part 2 of 3 – CLICK … Hong Kong 2007 – Part 1 of 3Read more
10:30pm Tune: “Traveler” by Rhian Sheehan Drink: Blue Ice Beer Has the view ever been better? Never. That’s because I’ve never had a view with a better view, nor a view that is equally as … Hong Kong 2007 – The City That Never SleepsRead more
8:25am I had a dream this morning where I was going to school somewhere. The teacher was supposed to be Mr. Whittingham, except that a substitute was teaching in his place, and even though the … RepresentingRead more
2:28pm Ack! I have to leave for my meeting in 11 minutes! So quickly… I had a ‘weird’ dream just before I woke up. I hate it when the feeling of the ‘good’ part always … Neglected Or Reflected?Read more
10:57am Yeah, noticed that time? I barely got any sleep. My eyes are achingly dry. Went downstairs about 30 minutes ago for a full cup of milk. The Port earlier dried me out. I had … A Strange Dream, Yet AgainRead more
1:37am I was just thinking throughout the day that there are things that has been stopping the ‘progression’ of certain situations from happening in the last year since I came back from Hong Kong, but … The More It HappensRead more
3:41am Tune: “The Man In The Desert” by Yoko Kanno Mood: Feels like I am waiting for something or someone Drink: Fonseca Bin 27 Port Ever had a dream that naturally flows into the transition … The Man In The DesertRead more
9:27pm Finding no one on my phonebook that lives close enough for a bike ride, I went out on my own around 8:30pm. Before I even decided to do my usual 7.2 kilometre ride – … A Mid Evening RideRead more
9:53pm Any tall Asian-descendant guys who is single, not pale looking and have a proportionate meat and muscle to height balance, her butt is quite big and round and stiff enough to make a loud … Spongey’s First Pacific Spirit RideRead more
10:31am We can almost be twins… Hmmm, I just noticed… Spongey – stop slouching! The last couple of weeks was straight work, and the last week had been nearly no gaming too! [sobs] With that … A Short Ride With LauraRead more
11:52am [“Beyond The Borders” by Elysis] ^^ This tune was made by one of my favorite musicians of the 90’s. It was an on-going inspiration for me to continue with what can be precious to … Beyond The BordersRead more
3:34am I would like to thank Michelle for linking the music video to Pink Floyd’s “Comfortably Numb” on You Tube. I also watched a fan-make of this song: Anyway, the real purpose of this entry … Comfortably NumbRead more
4:02pm [“Traces” by Enigma] Just came home from my client’s place. What a fun 4 hours! Weee! [sobs] There was actually another entry before this that I submitted. It was a long one, but after … Sex, Just Add WaterRead more
10:04pm Shit, I have so much stuff to do tonight and I slacked off the entire day today! My client is going to be MAD – MAD like those MILFs Against Drunk Drivers MADD! 😉 … Use Your Cloaking DeviceRead more
11:08am Just got up from a 7 hour sleep. Not bad. I have to complete the working version of my client’s web site today though. [sigh] Another dream… I dreamt I was with 3 friends … Coal & DiamondRead more
2:56pm [“Ligaya” by Gouryella] Last night, I had a dream where I walked around my old neighborhood and around my old elementary school at Mitchell. It was slightly different than in real life. The air … Riches To Rags To ModerationRead more
11:24pm [“Take A Little Hand” by Gabriela Robin] I waited until now to enter this rather disturbing dream I had this morning. Sometimes, I dream about really grotesque things, but as most of my dreams … Couldn’t Look At HerRead more
Continued from PREVIOUS PAGE – click here. I decided to split this entry up into two parts, as the bandwidth was killing me. ^^ There’s something nice and artistic about the blur in this photo. … Hong Kong 10/22 to 11/12/2006 – Part IIRead more
2:14am Please note that it will take me a good two to three hours to upload the photos one by one – very tedious, and try to remember what happened that moment, then string it … Hong Kong 10/22 to 11/12/2006 – Part IRead more
2:55pm After a month and a bit of massive stress, the last couple of weeks had been pretty easy-going. So it’s great to end my weekend to my last week at work with some nice … Mount Seymour Bridal PathRead more
1:16am Tune: “You Sang To Me” by Marc Anthony A few months after Virginia gave up on me, I heard this song play on the stereo. The lyrics didn’t click until around late August 2000. … You Sang To MeRead more
4:31pm [“Beyond Raging Waves” by DJ Krush] It’s nice that the form boxes for WordPress doesn’t ‘cache’ text when I mistakenly press a link to load out of this area… DAMN YOU WORDPRESS! Anyway, so … Alice Lake Biking 2006 August 3rdRead more
12:27am ^^ At Peak 2 – Back to Front: Patrick, Freddy, Isis, Emery, Mike, Leeman (duh!), Albert, Jenny, and Emma. Missing: Lovely and the other guy whom I don’t remember the name to. [“Who’s The … The Chief Peak 2006 July 29thRead more
2:51pm About an hour before I go into work-mode. I have a major short-video production I need to create for work tomorrow. Yes, as usual, leave it to the last moment to complete it. So … Pacific Spirit With Albert & JennyRead more
3:43am [“Stronger” by Sugar Babes] Ah, my sleep schedule is very messed… Then again, the abnormality of sleeping late is really a normality. Where as sleeping ‘normal’ hours is actually the abnormal. Un m un … Richmond Dyke Trails 2006 July 20thRead more
11:35pm So I did make it back alive after all. 8] Yeah I know, but always just in case. I should update my will as soon as my many mosquito stings go away. Going up … Reflections In The Morning AfterRead more
12:15am “Weenerschnitzle” and “Twinginberries” seems to be Pat’s two most spoken ‘words’. I lucka no speek engrish. [implodes] Boy are my quads sore! I cycled for 15 minutes and then did my round of gym … The Nationstate of EmmaRead more
2:15pm I can already feel this entry will be kinda long. So before I type away I will remind myself that I have quite a few injuries from yesterday’s ride. I’ll make this short. We … Tour De PatrickRead more
9:50pm Jeebus! I AM SO TIRED and SO SORE! Woke up at 8:50am, got dropped off at Pat’s around 9:15am, got ready, etc, then headed out by 10am. We took the wrong road looking for … Tour De Patrick Pre-RideRead more
1:41am “Stronger” by Sugababes It’s time I reclaim myself after this long, arduous journey. If you’re wondering, it’s not that I wasn’t myself – I simply lost something along the way. It’s a hollow, numbing … Wanna Come With Me?Read more
8:18pm …so I can try to rescue her this time. [“Yearning” – Mono] Yeah, the dream has been bugging me. Looking back on it now, despite everything – despite Chloe being two-faced, immoral, and selfish … My Desire To Rescue Her From My DreamRead more
1:19am [“Time Is The Healer (Armin Van Buuren Remix)” – Riva] Another day passes, and another day starts. ‘Time’ is moving so fast. Yet not at the same time. Almost like an oxymoron eh? I’ve … Unstable MountainRead more
2:42am This weekend moved at an agonizingly slow pace, a stark contrast to the speed of the two weeks before. The hours stretched endlessly, as if time itself had drifted into weightlessness, with each moment … Summer In JuneRead more
Disclaimer
The concepts of Leemanism are minimally filtered and don't reflect the people I value or associate with. Those who accept me, embrace our common ground and tolerate our differences. How people perceive me doesn't mean the people I mention here are the same as me. It's possible they're similar, different, or both. Full compatibility between people is rare, as is full support, even when people claim it.
Society expects self-respect to follow its rules, but real self-respect is about doing what pleases you while refusing to tolerate disrespect. When others disrespect you, you cut them out. Don’t let society convince you that self-respect should be based on its moral standards. It’s your right to live as you desire, not as society dictates. Too many people lose their individuality to fit in, pretending to be unique while secretly seeking acceptance. If you're someone who tries to fit in while claiming to be ‘weird,’ you're delusional. People talk about being weird, but when challenged, they retreat into conformity, avoiding accountability.
That’s boring.
Still, I get that some people have to conform to survive, as society and the law often punish those who don't fit in. Even if your ideals are right, society will likely deem you wrong, and even your friends may side with society over you.
We are few. Stay safe. (•̀ᵥᵥ•́)
