Thoughtful Nutmeg

Into the wild

Lately, I’ve been having dreams of past flings and the ‘metaphors’ along with them. The other night, I dreamed that there were two girls in my life. One of which was apparently my girlfriend and the other was a friend with benefits. Also, one of my closer female friends apparently also knew about my friend with benefits and she explained to one of our mutual guy friends what I was up to and stuff.

It was a ‘strange’ dream.

This brought me to remind myself of my past intimate relationships and realized that what I felt back then was obviously just pain and suffering. It was raw expression. Now that I think about it, what I could have done was celebrate the good things that happened and try to move away from the bad things. Harder said than done of course, but if I had been able to do that, I think my overall outlook in life would have been much more inspiring.

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Leemanism is about my views, my thoughts, and my feelings with as little filtering as possible. These concepts are not reflected in the people I value and are associated with. People who accept me, adhere to the parts where we are compatible and tolerate the parts where we are not. So however people perceive me to be, ultimately it obviously doesn't mean the friends I mention in this blog are the same as me. It means it's possible they are similar or the same, as well as different than me. It is highly unusual for people to be completely compatible with each other.

With that out of the way, and to make things clear, I never said I am a good person, nor am I trying to be one, though I would rather live with the empathetic than with the cruel. I would not deliberately do harm. I rather stand up against injustice than to pretend it doesn't exist. However, I understand consequences. The police is there to enforce the law, but not deter crimes from happening. Which means people must do what they must do to protect themselves, before the law of the land takes over and even then, the law of the land isn't there to protect you. It's there to protect the general consensus. Even if you may be right, society may deem you wrong - even most of your friends may side with society, than protect you. The law will almost always side with society.

We are few. Stay safe. (•̀ᵥᵥ•́)