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2:38am

Tune: “Lost Friend” by Dolce Triade

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Maybe I am oblivious to the common emotion that a lot of people feel if a said truth were to appear before them. Most people that say things about themselves is because they are uncomfortable with themselves, and they express it because they wish that the receiver would disagree with them. For me though, I believe I am different in that aspect. When I say something about myself that may look negative for others, to me, it’s the personal truth.

The question is, “Why is personal truth negative?”

Most people I’ve talked with say things about themselves that seem negative because they have low self esteem and it’s the only way to laugh about it, without actually laughing. For me, I do not poke fun at myself and when I do and when it is apparent, I do it to make others uncomfortable and I take advantage of this fact because I find it humorous that others will feel uncomfortable when even I don’t.

Personal truth is like another limb – a natural occurrence. Like breathing, liking thinking, reacting, walking, avoiding, dodging, etc. I never justify things that pertain to my personal truth, because to me, it is logical and the hierarchy of experiences leading up to that conclusion empowers that personal truth.

When I say it, it’s just a natural occurrence. It’s me conversing with you, as if it was common knowledge. There is nothing shameful about it. I would say that 99.9% of the all the people I know, most and if not, all the time, they feel somewhat shameful in acknowledging themselves. I am no exception BUT the difference being, acknowledging personal truth does not hinder me in any way.

My existence depends on you. Not me. However, I don’t feel as though I am a part of this world. I constantly feel as though I need to go back home. There’s just that feeling deep down inside, as if I belong somewhere else. Ever since that night all those years ago…

You see, it’s things like that, that no other will ever see, experience and feel because that truth is personal. Amongst the other aspects of my personal truth, no one in this world can ever truly accept another persons truth because it’s personal.

In short, when I say something that pertains to me to you, try not to be uncomfortable. To me, it’s common knowledge and personal truth. Nothing is more accurate than personal truth.

2:50am

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Concepts from Leemanism has as little filtering as possible. These concepts are not reflected in the people I value and are associated with. People who accept me, adhere to the parts where we are compatible and tolerate the parts where we are not. So however people perceive me to be, ultimately it obviously doesn't mean the people I mention in this blog are the same as me. It means it's possible they are similar or the same, as well as different than me. It is highly unusual for people to be completely compatible with each other. It is also highly unusual for people to be fully supportive of each other, even if they say they do.

Common society expects self-respect to be a concept you enforce on yourself, while solely adhering to what common society dictates as being right. However, self-respect in fact, is doing what pleases you, while not permitting others to disrespect you, and when they do, you cut them out of your life. Don't let common society gaslight you into believing the self-respect you have for yourself should be dictated by common society's views on morality. Self-respect is the individual's right to live as they desire - not what common society deems as acceptable. Too often, people succumb to the weight of the world, dismissing their individual value, to try to fit in and be accepted. If you are the type of person who tries to fit in with common society, under the fantasy you are also an unique 'weird' person of your own thoughts, then I dare say, you're delusional. Everyone says they rather be weird, but when challenged, they retreat back into their social shells, doing everything they can to deflect self accountability.

That's utterly boring.

However, at the same time, I also understand that some people must do what they must do to protect themselves, before the law of the land and before common society try to lynch them for what they are. Even if your ideals may be right, society will more often than not, deem you wrong - even most of your friends may side with society, than protect you.

So with that said, we are few. Stay safe. (•̀ᵥᵥ•́)

I am one of the few I am one of the many