Thoughtful Nutmeg

Canned Tuna

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One of my favorite tunes. “Change” by Deftones.

I’m just very stressed right now, coinciding Amber. It’s compounded, but ultimately, has nothing to do with her. It’s all me. It’s all in my head. It’s hard dealing with it because I have no outlet.

Now, before Amber comments on this post, don’t. ^_^ This is a problem with myself. There is nothing anyone in the entire universe can say to make me feel otherwise. I’m a lonely old sod with a lot of ambition, but just no drive. It’s easy to get what I don’t care for, but difficult to get what I really want.

I need another drink, but the only alcohol in the house is my brother’s bottle of Corona in a special Mexico bottle, which I am not going to open… BUT… THERE IS a bottle of Johnny Walker Golden Label I got from a client eight years ago. I will never make another $100,000. That’s not going to happen. I’m opening it tonight to celebrate my stress at an all-time high. Cheers!

In the end, I suffer from the choices I make.

2 thoughts on “Canned Tuna

  1. Hang in there L. Go for short sprints on your Trek. If you made $100,000 before, you can do it again. You’re already proved that you can do it. Let’s keep each other positive k?

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Leemanism is about my views, my thoughts, and my feelings with as little filtering as possible. These concepts are not reflected in the people I value and are associated with. People who accept me, adhere to the parts where we are compatible and tolerate the parts where we are not. So however people perceive me to be, ultimately it obviously doesn't mean the friends I mention in this blog are the same as me. It means it's possible they are similar or the same, as well as different than me. It is highly unusual for people to be completely compatible with each other.

With that out of the way, and to make things clear, I never said I am a good person, nor am I trying to be one, though I would rather live with the empathetic than with the cruel. I would not deliberately do harm. I rather stand up against injustice than to pretend it doesn't exist. However, I understand consequences. The police is there to enforce the law, but not deter crimes from happening. Which means people must do what they must do to protect themselves, before the law of the land takes over and even then, the law of the land isn't there to protect you. It's there to protect the general consensus. Even if you may be right, society may deem you wrong - even most of your friends may side with society, than protect you. The law will almost always side with society.

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