Thoughtful Nutmeg

Disappointed In My Friends

Normally, when I send out emails to my friends, I get a response within the next two or three days, no matter how busy they are. About nine days ago, I sent an email with a business proposal that talked about the basics of what I needed the money for. I normally don’t ask people for help, unless I am already at my wit’s end and need aid.

I knew that most of the people on my email list wouldn’t be able to invest, but I asked out of respect. The idea behind that respect, is that they were on my mind on the premise I would like to have them be a part of my life in another form. This is on the wavelength that I know most of them wouldn’t be able to invest or isn’t willing to invest. Thus, seeing this on a higher pedestal of awesomeness, I expected them to respectfully decline. Instead, I only received one “No” response from someone I considered one of my closest friends, until six days later.

They should not be embarrassed to just say “No”. I would have immediately said “No” followed by a “Thanks for considering me as a potential angel investor, but…” Maybe I thought too highly of my friends. I know normally, they are awesome people. Most of them have helped me through life and I will never forget that. At the very least, Jon had the decency to respond. Though that is understandable, as according to my previous blog post about distance and the feeling of coldness.

This isn’t about the money. This is about the lack of mutual respect. Maybe I am ‘too’ anal retentive on my principles, but I feel that this is outright plainly disrespectful to ignore my email.

With this said, I know that I will not ask them for anything in the future, even if I am on my death bed. What’s the point? That I have to beg for a simple answer, before anyone would respond? Fuck that shit.

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Leemanism is about my views, my thoughts, and my feelings with as little filtering as possible. These concepts are not reflected in the people I value and are associated with. People who accept me, adhere to the parts where we are compatible and tolerate the parts where we are not. So however people perceive me to be, ultimately it obviously doesn't mean the friends I mention in this blog are the same as me. It means it's possible they are similar or the same, as well as different than me. It is highly unusual for people to be completely compatible with each other.

With that out of the way, and to make things clear, I never said I am a good person, nor am I trying to be one, though I would rather live with the empathetic than with the cruel. I would not deliberately do harm. I rather stand up against injustice than to pretend it doesn't exist. However, I understand consequences. The police is there to enforce the law, but not deter crimes from happening. Which means people must do what they must do to protect themselves, before the law of the land takes over and even then, the law of the land isn't there to protect you. It's there to protect the general consensus. Even if you may be right, society may deem you wrong - even most of your friends may side with society, than protect you. The law will almost always side with society.

We are few. Stay safe. (•̀ᵥᵥ•́)