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Candle Lit Room

I have lived the majority of my life in a room lit by one candle. Note that this is metaphorical. ^_^ Today was such a day where I woke up and was extremely down and depressed. Stress piled up on me and I was near a breaking point. So I told my wife on Skype that I wanted to take a nap and left. As I laid in bed, tired emotionally, I felt cold. So I pulled the third blanket over me. Yes, it’s only October 4th and the temperature isn’t that bad. Imagine come December and January!

As I laid there, I thought about the issue of my tooth. That the dentist might have made a blunder and drilled the wrong one and did not fix the one with the broken-off tooth. So tomorrow, I have to make that call and tell them they might have drilled the wrong one. This terrifies me, but it isn’t the first time I’ve been confrontational. I’ve done it before. It’s just that, if the dentist presses that he would charge me or charge me the full amount, I would be further in debt. Doubling up with my current depression, anxiety and stress, this is not a good thing.

However, then I shook myself out of feeling down and thought, “It’s inevitable that I must face this tomorrow. So I need to stop dragging myself down now, making things worst.” For the last hour, this is what I’ve been doing:

– Tell myself inevitable issue will be resolved tomorrow.
– Deal with the communication calmly and be assertive, not aggressive.
– Make sure to tell dentist that they made a mistake and that they need to fix the right tooth.

I am fine if they charge me a consultation and x-ray fee, but not the fee to fix the problem. This is something they made the mistake on.

The last thing I want is to be charged extra for a fault they made and the need to make an official complaint to the BC Dentistry association. I just hope the new dentists that took over Doctor Choi’s clinic are reasonable.

In the mean time, I need to pick myself up. I’m going to play some WoW, watch some Netflix, possibly do some work, read up further on game design stuff and hopefully it will help stabilize my emotions.

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