Thoughtful Nutmeg

Simple Bread

Tune: “La Joie De La Vie (Paronator Mix)” by Denis Melody Shohina
Drink: Oasis Orange Juice
Mood: A bit tired

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There are parts of this tune that I don’t like, but I’ve been listening to this tune for the last 3 days, nearly non-stop because parts of it sound really good. Good parts: 1:12 leading up to 1:46, then from there to 2:16 and right at 2:17-ish is when the bit really gets to me until 3:02. Reminds me of days long past, where I used to compose music inspired by such artists as Darkhalo, Necros and the NOiSE, Kahvi, Miasmah and Tokyo Dawn collective of the late 1990’s to mid 2000’s. Unfortunately, most of them became meh to me after that.

It also reminds me of the days when my emotions ran wild and my inability to be considerate of others, where I ‘rebelled’ and sought an outlet. Those were fun times, memorable and worth every moment. Mind you, I will definitely choose not to relive those memories again. They are too cruel to me in my latter years.

Madhu has been emailing me like crazy lately thinking I am utterly depressed out of my mind, but I am not. I am alone and lonely, but not depressed out of my mind. At the very least, I went out for a bike ride yesterday after taking a break from riding for almost 3 weeks. Not that I was really taking a break to begin with, since I haven’t exactly ridden consistently for the last year to warrant a break.

I posted a short wall post at Facebook about an hour ago. It says: “Who else do you know that works from 2pm to 3am daily, 6 to 7 days per week?” Michelle responded: “No! That’s crazy hours. Can’t be good for the soul.” Then I snickered, went downstairs, got a slice of ‘simple bread’ and some juice and came up here for this post.

I enjoy my work and it’s a bit funny because I can do this sort of work much more optimally than I do for something something. Yes, something something. I vow to keep my career-related business off my personal blog, at least keep the substances of the two separate. Let’s put it this way: I enjoy my work here much more than I do with a client that does not know how to appreciate my work and always uses the blame game whenever something doesn’t go her way and is out of my control. At least this way, I deal directly with the business and the problems. Where as the other way, I deal with one person that don’t know anything. I’m sure many of you have faced similar issues in the past. Did it make you throw a bunch of pillows together and punch them against the boss’ door repeatedly and aggressively? No? Me neither, though I have fantasized about it.

I’m almost out of Cruzen premium rum, but I’ve been craving for Bombay Gin for quite awhile now. What about you?

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Leemanism is about my views, my thoughts, and my feelings with as little filtering as possible. These concepts are not reflected in the people I value and are associated with. People who accept me, adhere to the parts where we are compatible and tolerate the parts where we are not. So however people perceive me to be, ultimately it obviously doesn't mean the friends I mention in this blog are the same as me. It means it's possible they are similar or the same, as well as different than me. It is highly unusual for people to be completely compatible with each other.

With that out of the way, and to make things clear, I never said I am a good person, nor am I trying to be one, though I would rather live with the empathetic than with the cruel. I would not deliberately do harm. I rather stand up against injustice than to pretend it doesn't exist. However, I understand consequences. The police is there to enforce the law, but not deter crimes from happening. Which means people must do what they must do to protect themselves, before the law of the land takes over and even then, the law of the land isn't there to protect you. It's there to protect the general consensus. Even if you may be right, society may deem you wrong - even most of your friends may side with society, than protect you. The law will almost always side with society.

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