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Simple Bread

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Tune: “La Joie De La Vie (Paronator Mix)” by Denis Melody Shohina
Drink: Oasis Orange Juice
Mood: A bit tired

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There are parts of this tune that I don’t like, but I’ve been listening to this tune for the last 3 days, nearly non-stop because parts of it sound really good. Good parts: 1:12 leading up to 1:46, then from there to 2:16 and right at 2:17-ish is when the bit really gets to me until 3:02. Reminds me of days long past, where I used to compose music inspired by such artists as Darkhalo, Necros and the NOiSE, Kahvi, Miasmah and Tokyo Dawn collective of the late 1990’s to mid 2000’s. Unfortunately, most of them became meh to me after that.

It also reminds me of the days when my emotions ran wild and my inability to be considerate of others, where I ‘rebelled’ and sought an outlet. Those were fun times, memorable and worth every moment. Mind you, I will definitely choose not to relive those memories again. They are too cruel to me in my latter years.

Madhu has been emailing me like crazy lately thinking I am utterly depressed out of my mind, but I am not. I am alone and lonely, but not depressed out of my mind. At the very least, I went out for a bike ride yesterday after taking a break from riding for almost 3 weeks. Not that I was really taking a break to begin with, since I haven’t exactly ridden consistently for the last year to warrant a break.

I posted a short wall post at Facebook about an hour ago. It says: “Who else do you know that works from 2pm to 3am daily, 6 to 7 days per week?” Michelle responded: “No! That’s crazy hours. Can’t be good for the soul.” Then I snickered, went downstairs, got a slice of ‘simple bread’ and some juice and came up here for this post.

I enjoy my work and it’s a bit funny because I can do this sort of work much more optimally than I do for something something. Yes, something something. I vow to keep my career-related business off my personal blog, at least keep the substances of the two separate. Let’s put it this way: I enjoy my work here much more than I do with a client that does not know how to appreciate my work and always uses the blame game whenever something doesn’t go her way and is out of my control. At least this way, I deal directly with the business and the problems. Where as the other way, I deal with one person that don’t know anything. I’m sure many of you have faced similar issues in the past. Did it make you throw a bunch of pillows together and punch them against the boss’ door repeatedly and aggressively? No? Me neither, though I have fantasized about it.

I’m almost out of Cruzen premium rum, but I’ve been craving for Bombay Gin for quite awhile now. What about you?

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Concepts from Leemanism has as little filtering as possible. These concepts are not reflected in the people I value and are associated with. People who accept me, adhere to the parts where we are compatible and tolerate the parts where we are not. So however people perceive me to be, ultimately it obviously doesn't mean the people I mention in this blog are the same as me. It means it's possible they are similar or the same, as well as different than me. It is highly unusual for people to be completely compatible with each other. It is also highly unusual for people to be fully supportive of each other, even if they say they do.

Common society expects self-respect to be a concept you enforce on yourself, while solely adhering to what common society dictates as being right. However, self-respect in fact, is doing what pleases you, while not permitting others to disrespect you, and when they do, you cut them out of your life. Don't let common society gaslight you into believing the self-respect you have for yourself should be dictated by common society's views on morality. Self-respect is the individual's right to live as they desire - not what common society deems as acceptable. Too often, people succumb to the weight of the world, dismissing their individual value, to try to fit in and be accepted. If you are the type of person who tries to fit in with common society, under the fantasy you are also an unique 'weird' person of your own thoughts, then I dare say, you're delusional. Everyone says they rather be weird, but when challenged, they retreat back into their social shells, doing everything they can to deflect self accountability.

That's utterly boring.

However, at the same time, I also understand that some people must do what they must do to protect themselves, before the law of the land and before common society try to lynch them for what they are. Even if your ideals may be right, society will more often than not, deem you wrong - even most of your friends may side with society, than protect you.

So with that said, we are few. Stay safe. (•̀ᵥᵥ•́)

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