1:52am
[“Come Back To Me” by Vanessa Hudgen]
You have no idea how much effort it took me to type this. My gosh. Yeah, the last time I was nearly drink was May 2005. The funny thing is that I am aware enough, but I acan;t type properly. Wow. Will I delete this when i see it? Maybe.
What made this more depressing is that my friends remembered my birthday. Every year – day in, day out, I never thought of celebrating it. It’s depressing because I did once in my lifetime at least one, thought I could disappear. Ed, Albert, Jenny, Laura, pat, wouldn’t let me have more, but to enter the rest of my thoughts, I need more.
[goes downstairs for glass]
I told myself that i will never have more hard liquor, but… Honestly, I feel emotionally in pain all the time. I can;t compare with many people and I feel saddened, but these are the only emotions I know and can feel.
[pours myself a shot of Warre’s Warrior Port]
It’s nice and was a total surprise that my family remembered…/ Re,e, Re,e Remembered. [chuckles] Its’ nice, it really is.
I can’t complete. Thank you…
2:22am
Happy,Happy BIRTHDAY!!!!!!![hug]
8] Thank you… I actually got your other email at DC, but was too out of it to reply. 8]
Um, Ariel, it *might* not be such a good idea to hug Li while he’s intoxicated!! He becomes bold… VERY bold :p
Really? That bold eh? What did I do? [ponders very innocently] I don’t remember much, considering was like so sick when I woke up… NEVER AGAIN! [waves fist in the air]
*sigh*
I wish I could have been there. To see Li smashed off his rocker. I would have laughed so hard. ….for a couple minutes anyway, then I’d probly be too busy trying to dodge any projectile vomitting that might have occured.
Hahaha! 8]
Spongey!!!!!! BEHAVE yourself…..But it would of been such a laugh to see him intoxicated.