Leemanism

Temptation is a huge nuisance, even though it is also used as a driving point to achieve goals. Something reminds me constantly that no matter the distance, no matter whether my wife is near or … Falling in loveRead more

In the past, when I was with Cindy, she told me that I wasn’t there with her when her mom was in the hospital. That was back in the beginning of 2005. This one stuck … Not there when I should beRead more

I struggle with depression. At the moment, I am testing my resolve and limits by not taking my needed monthly injection. I will next week however, after not taking it for over six weeks. Imagine … SturdyRead more

The net is a wonderful invention. It is one nation, fragmented only by the connection you have with it. No one person nor company or government entity controls it. They can only restrict access to … Back in the dayRead more

I find myself catching the calendar dates every now and then. I think to myself: “Two weeks ago today, I left Germany and have arrived back home already. I would be sleeping at around this … Counting outRead more

In my youth, I was pretty ‘normal’ as far as ‘geekdom’ went. There was a fence that cordoned off an area of old farmland and behind those fences were the houses near where I lived. … Diminished KingdomRead more

I was never good at chess, though I would like to think I know more than just the mechanics. I played games against others where I was not aggressive enough against a sub-par opponent and … StalemateRead more

The Pursuit Of Happyness is one of my favorite movies. I must have watched that two dozen times in the last three years. At the end of the movie, Chris Gardner gets his break in … The Pursuit Of HappynessRead more

My mom and dad will be going back to Hong Kong next Tuesday to attend the burial ceremony for my G-ma who passed away two mornings ago. I spent that night contemplating on her life … My legacyRead more

I’m sure many people have come to a point in their relationships where they wonder where it’s going and wonder where their partners place them in the bigger picture of things. In my years playing … Zoomed out, way outRead more

Welcome to Leemanism 8.0. Here’s a short video about it. March 23rd, 2006 and still going. Amazing eh? That’s almost two months short of seven years! o_o Holy crap! I just realized I’ve known Laura … Welcome to 8.0Read more

I know it has been a SUPER DUPER long time since I posted an entry, let alone a fun entry. Yeah, I did away with the log-in. That is why if it seems you need … Right Click when it BloopsRead more

[yt]TYKh4nZEzzs[/yt] I fell asleep on a late night train I missed my stop and I went round again Why would I wanna see you now? To fix it up, make it up somehow Baby I’ll … Beyond meRead more

Erica was worried and had emailed me a few weeks ago asking where my blog went and what happened to me. I gave her a vague answer and restored my blog yesterday. I get into … My dreams are growing oldRead more

Parts of that night came back to me. That night that I was drunk again for the first time in a long time. I cannot control my emotions when I am drunk. Uncle Dick mentioned … I rememberedRead more

One pet peeve that annoys the crap out of me is when I hear or see someone say “I dont know what to do”. For minor things, maybe or maybe very complicated issues, then I … I don’t know what to doRead more

More often than not, when I am stressed out or moody, people stop prodding me and actually go into a proactive mode to counter my moodiness. I think most of my friends do a wonderful … The Eternal AssholeRead more

This entry was due to my procrastination of a dream I had earlier today. It was probably the saddest dream I have ever had and as some of you know, most of my dreams are … I broke her dark heartRead more

I use to have a huge entry in here originally published February 7th, just to replace it with one word: “No.” right afterward. It was a huge entry about desires and rhetoric. I felt I … The annexation of LeemanRead more

Yes I took a part of that line from “Whose Line Is It?”. I loved that show. the American version anyway. So I found out from Uncle Dick that he won’t be able to take … The heavens play me like a fishRead more

This song is from the ‘pondering days’ of my youth. The days after lost and exposure. This was 1999. A few weeks ago, my mom shed a tear for me with a slightly whimpering voice … Bamboo ForestRead more

…tastes better than when served hot. Though some people may disagree. For the last few days, I’ve been especially down and I think the whole thing with Pete three days ago really sparked the active … Sake, served cold…Read more

One thing that has been on the back of my mind for awhile now has been Amber’s situation at home in Germany with her family. Over the last year and a half, I found out … To feel welcomedRead more

Laura has brought to my attention a terrifying realization… But I don’t remember it. Ah my short term memory is NON-EXISTING!!! And on that bombshell: doesn’t the Fake Baby Eating Cannibal resemble Jonathan of the … Coincidence?Read more

One of the most mind boggling things I have come across is when someone tells me they can’t do something in someone else’s house because it’s rude to do so. I am specifically talking about … The Guest’s RudenessRead more

There isn’t much that inspires me these days, let alone motivate me, but I keep going regardless. Amber and I very recently had a conversation about the fear of getting through all the things one … Inspiring the heartRead more

I once laughed at these words when Cindy repeated to me what Nelson said to her about himself all those years ago. He said to her: “I am a lover. Not a fighter.” At the … The Fighter Or The LoverRead more